Ahh. I had a lie planned in case it was discovered, and it'd be totally believable. Although I knew I couldn't say it to anyone's face as it'd be obvious I was lieing, even though they'd be like 'why do you want this though?'
Sodium NitrAte is used in fertilizer, and like tomatoes/etc. I was just going to say 'got the wrong one-- costs more to return than to get the right one' or some variant. If looked up, it would be true. What I said is true-ish. It was just going to be a lie that it wasn't a wrong one. Granted I have it hidden, so it won't be found. But I still came up with that just in case--assuming others noticed it was Nitrite.
Yeah, and there's always that lol. Even with my mom, we haven't for years--she'd be suspicious, but I do odd things. Granted the second she'd talk to my best friend, I'd be screwed... she'd even monitor and give me pills on a set schedule and have them locked up, and probably search my room. and I'm 43!Oh ok. I don't grow any vegetables so I'm not sure if my mom would buy what I say
Well you know, not to encourage people. What you do is up to you :)
Don't think I've seen anything today.... which seems odd...
I've just checked her profile post and her post on Stan's goodbye thread. I'm not sure she'll make it to New Years..
I've just checked her profile post and her post on Stan's goodbye thread. I'm not sure she'll make it to New Years..
She's said it twice that she's sorry. I think it's safe to say it's a possibility that its true. A lot of people have committed suicide saying those words before.
As will I .... one of my friends knows it's my last text to him, when it's too late for him to stop it.
I think it is better to get it and hide it than to have it "hanging out there" when needed. Bummer.
My doctor is scared to even write ONE prescription for ambien. Coward.
And does it matter when you tell them, hey this actually WORKS for me, and I haven't slept in months, so how about it. NO!
I thought she said yesterday that she had to work today. Maybe that's where she is?
Just wanted to say thanks. I think you were the one that first brought up the Xanax last night. I had told you how I went to the doctor and they wouldn't give me any. I had previously been to an urgent care center and the doctor gave me 20 of them, but told me I would have to go to my regular doctor to get anymore. That's when I went to my regular doctor and she wouldn't give me any. However, I had completely forgotten that my SIL had given me a few of them a few months ago when I couldn't sleep. I still had one left that I had forgotten all about, so I took it last night and got the best sleep I've had in weeks. So, thanks again.So wine and xanax in my case
Just wanted to say thanks. I think you were the one that first brought up the Xanax last night. I had told you how I went to the doctor and they wouldn't give me any. I had previously been to an urgent care center and the doctor gave me 20 of them, but told me I would have to go to my regular doctor to get anymore. That's when I went to my regular doctor and she wouldn't give me any. However, I had completely forgotten that my SIL had given me a few of them a few months ago when I couldn't sleep. I still had one left that I had forgotten all about, so I took it last night and got the best sleep I've had in weeks. So, thanks again.
I'm glad you got some sleep. Is it just your pcp that won't prescribe it or do you see a psychiatrist? I know I tried getting my pcp to take over my mental health medications and she wasn't comfortable because it was a controlled substance blahblahblah, so I had to stay with my psychiatrist. That may make a difference.Just wanted to say thanks. I think you were the one that first brought up the Xanax last night. I had told you how I went to the doctor and they wouldn't give me any. I had previously been to an urgent care center and the doctor gave me 20 of them, but told me I would have to go to my regular doctor to get anymore. That's when I went to my regular doctor and she wouldn't give me any. However, I had completely forgotten that my SIL had given me a few of them a few months ago when I couldn't sleep. I still had one left that I had forgotten all about, so I took it last night and got the best sleep I've had in weeks. So, thanks again.
Yep :)
I haven't tried to get it from a psychiatrist. I'll have to give that a try. I did go to a psychiatrist at one point and he gave me Klonopin, which also seems to put me to sleep. I've been living where I am a little over a year now, so I don't have any relationships with any doctors here. I hate going to new doctors, so I've been putting it off, but if I last long enough next year, I know I'm going to have to start seeing some doctors. I suppose a psychiatrist should probably be at the top of my list.
Thank you for having the patience and fortitude to read the whole thing.
I haven't tried to get it from a psychiatrist. I'll have to give that a try. I did go to a psychiatrist at one point and he gave me Klonopin, which also seems to put me to sleep. I've been living where I am a little over a year now, so I don't have any relationships with any doctors here. I hate going to new doctors, so I've been putting it off, but if I last long enough next year, I know I'm going to have to start seeing some doctors. I suppose a psychiatrist should probably be at the top of my list.
If your friend only knew?!
Thank you for having the patience and fortitude to read the whole thing.
