I don't see how anything gets better. Life has been terrible for at least 15 years straight. Maybe some things get better, but then they get replaced with another type of misery. My mother was an alcoholic, then she dumped us and left the country, couldn't pass my exams and all my friends moved away, then I had an abuse boyfriend, then I lived in a moldy basement, then I broke up with my 2nd boyfriend and had to move out, couldn't find a place, so I live in a 7m2 shed now without my own facilities like a toilet or shower and inside it's as cold as outside, now I'm in love with someone that doesn't love me back, but does fuck me when he wants to.... And I'm done, just done. I feel like I'm spoiled and ungrateful, but I'm just not made for this world. I don't fit in this society, I'm too weird and I will never ever be truly happy. I wonder what people envision when they tell me life will get better; truly can't wait to see what's next to fuck me up.