Surviving an attempt

[EternalPain]

I don't think there's many feelings worse than waking up realizing you should've and could've died last night. It's shameful, because you failed. It's painful, because you are forced to keep going. It's tiring, because it takes so much energy. It just sets you back even more.
I'm mad at myself both for wanting to die and for not having have died. I just wish I could turn back time to try again and try harder. I hate having the ability to think. I wish I was unaware of all the pain. Sentience is a punishment.

 

[FuneralCry]

A suicide attempt going wrong is exactly what I would fear, it's just horrible how we cannot just leave this world in peace without risks whenever we wish to, I hate how it's so difficult to die.

 

[Worndown]

This is the most difficult thing you will do. It runs counter to our basic drives. SI is there to protect us if we get too close.
Do not feel bad. If it was easy, nobody would be here!