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lotus.dead

lotus.dead

I just want to be an angel...
May 4, 2026
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ok so i planned OD only if i crash out again. i was crying so much last night but waking up this morning, somehow i feel nothing. like absolutely nothing. only a small mild pain. what is this? the calm before the storm? the peace of knowing i have a way out? Im genuinely so confused. its not like ive moved on or anything. should i brace myself?
 
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difficvltmachineryy

difficvltmachineryy

Szomorú vasárnap, száz fehér virággal 𔓘
May 9, 2026
39
Many people who are about to ctb suddenly become really calm and happy because they know they will do it, they have found a method. I am sorry life led you to feeling like this. Wishing you peace xoxo
 
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PainWorseThanDeath

PainWorseThanDeath

I wish it could have been any other way.
Apr 29, 2026
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ok so i planned OD only if i crash out again. i was crying so much last night but waking up this morning, somehow i feel nothing. like absolutely nothing. only a small mild pain. what is this? the calm before the storm? the peace of knowing i have a way out? Im genuinely so confused. its not like ive moved on or anything. should i brace myself?
You can always choose not to. Have you got any friends or loved ones?
 
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wine is fine but

whiskey's quicker
Jul 26, 2025
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yeah, i do. but when im completely depressed i stop thinkin bout anyone and just isolate myself
that part is just normal, but enjoy your current feeling while it last - hopefully it does for a very long time
 
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