Venting im so lonely

[venusblue]

i can't stop crying, i feel so alone, i've been scrolling on this website all day and just crying and crying. no one has checked in one me today. i can't make friends because im retarded. my body doesn't work properly and my head doesn't work properly and im tired of being miserable all the time. i want to CTB with a gun at my boyfriends house. they have unsecured firearms. but thinking about that makes me cry too. i don't want him to see me like that.

i have really bad OCD which causes an INTENSE fear of vomiting so im too terrified of poisoning myself. i think the gun is the only way out. someone please talk to me i feel so alone

 

[Leonard_Bangley39]

im sorry you have to go through this. loneliness is one of the worst feelings imaginable. the worst part is that sometimes you can feel lonely, even with people all around you. its ironically cruel. if you just need someone to talk to, or someone to just listen to your woes, im here.

 

[venusblue]

im sorry you have to go through this. loneliness is one of the worst feelings imaginable. the worst part is that sometimes you can feel lonely, even with people all around you. its ironically cruel. if you just need someone to talk to, or someone to just listen to your woes, im here.

thankyou i just feel so isolated and i feel like no one cares. i need a hug

 

[kunikuzushi]

I also feel a deep loneliness and it hurts so much. i'm sorry you feel this pain. i'm here if you need.

 

[Leonard_Bangley39]

thankyou i just feel so isolated and i feel like no one cares. i need a hug

theres always someone out there who cares, even if you dont know about it. i know i have trouble seeing that very often

 

[ugulamugula]

I can very much relate to you. You´re not alone with this, if you want to talk Dm me

 

[yearned]

im extremely lonely too. im sorry.

 

[venusblue]

i can't stop crying, i feel so alone, i've been scrolling on this website all day and just crying and crying. no one has checked in one me today. i can't make friends because im retarded. my body doesn't work properly and my head doesn't work properly and im tired of being miserable all the time. i want to CTB with a gun at my boyfriends house. they have unsecured firearms. but thinking about that makes me cry too. i don't want him to see me like that.

i have really bad OCD which causes an INTENSE fear of vomiting so im too terrified of poisoning myself. i think the gun is the only way out. someone please talk to me i feel so alone

i just wanna say im really grateful for your guys' kind words, it means so much to me, i didn't even expect anyone to reply but multiple people did and it made me feel seen. thank you. take care everyone, i hope the rest of your day/night is good

 

[Theresnoescape]

There's always someone here to talk to if you need to. I'm not always on but feel free to PM if you need to