Venting Stomach hurts, can't sleep, want to drink

[drugfiend]

Hey everyone,

Been a while since I was last on here, but rest assured I have been thinking of suicide constantly, as always. I'm a long-term alcoholic and recently have been running into some health issues. Since I'm having trouble even keeping water down, I surely can't drink tonight so I'm feeling extra miserable and just wanted to log on and see how everyone's doing. One thing I think about often is that alcohol withdrawal could technically be a way to end my life, but I find it hard to think of more unpleasant ways to go than this. You're just stuck feeling sick and anxious and it sucks. I hope I start feeling better soon so I can get back to drinking. A lot of people seem to be in a rush to die on SaSu, but I've been taking my sweet time with it. I wouldn't say it's a fun way to go, though. I'm sure a decade ago I would've loved to drink myself to death but when drunk is your default mode, I kind of just want to die sober. I know that might sound weird coming from an alcoholic, but what better way to go than with a clear head?

 

[semio]

I understand everything you said in this post. I am not a drinker anymore, ive been sober for a few years but when i was an alcoholic I kept hoping that I would just drink myself away, the cheapest shittiest vodka that lived on my desk coaxed me into keeping myself drunk all the time. I was just casually trying to die like you until I got sober because I was scared of life or death more appropriately, I guess. By the end of the month ill have my first drink in years as a final send off to this life. I hope you get back into being able to drink for as long as you see fit to. God speed.