rotthjärta
Member
- Apr 24, 2026
- 21
I don't have a personal place anymore, or a park nearby just to sit around to drink or smoke. And It kinda pisses me off because I have so many times where I feel like shit and I would like time alone. I tried walking around but theres no secluded areas or parks either. Ik its such a minuscule issue but people ruin my small routines and it annoys me. So Im just "saving everything" till I find a big enough urge to or yk a small nice spot.
Yk how peaceful it is to sit just at a park bench late at night. It reminds me when I used to go hang out & drink with people and its never fun at all mostly because they want to just get stoned and its annoying to talk to zombies. Or when you drink with them its like a reputation thing so you can't really be yourself or be a mess. I don't understand a lot of social dynamics or people who are so shallow, whats wrong with look stupid for a moment.
Ig thats why I enjoyed my time alone most, it was so calming. The park was empty during then. I have the idea occasionally to ctb that way to have my last peaceful night to myself in a spot to myself. These little things matter a lot to me as my own room isn't comfortable for me.
I don't want to move again, I genuinely dread it. Why do I have to follow a stupid whore with her issues around. I guess I am 19 I should get a license become an adult already instead of bitching.
Yk how peaceful it is to sit just at a park bench late at night. It reminds me when I used to go hang out & drink with people and its never fun at all mostly because they want to just get stoned and its annoying to talk to zombies. Or when you drink with them its like a reputation thing so you can't really be yourself or be a mess. I don't understand a lot of social dynamics or people who are so shallow, whats wrong with look stupid for a moment.
Ig thats why I enjoyed my time alone most, it was so calming. The park was empty during then. I have the idea occasionally to ctb that way to have my last peaceful night to myself in a spot to myself. These little things matter a lot to me as my own room isn't comfortable for me.
I don't want to move again, I genuinely dread it. Why do I have to follow a stupid whore with her issues around. I guess I am 19 I should get a license become an adult already instead of bitching.
