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BlueButterfly111

BlueButterfly111

Autistic and Heartbroken
Dec 26, 2024
202
Omg, I can't believe it, but I'm still waiting for my Sn to arrive in the U.S. after almost a month and a half. I'm honestly starting to think it's not going to show up. I will try to reorder it again, if it doesn't show up this month, if not I will try to reorder it at the beginning of next month. I've been suffering so much.

It's just so unfair, I just want to die, I'm grieving so much over losing my dead boyfriend, why won't the universe just let me go be with him? I've seen so many posts of people only getting theirs after a few weeks? I feel like a fucking cursed human. Like PLEASE just let me fucking die! Can someone please help me cope with this? I'm tired of being alive, tired of suffering.
 
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deadbidaylight

deadbidaylight

When life leaves us blind, love keeps us kind
Feb 27, 2025
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Is SN the only way you would consider CTB? There's lots of other methods out there that don't require waiting if you are in that much agony.
 
BlueButterfly111

BlueButterfly111

Autistic and Heartbroken
Dec 26, 2024
202
Is SN the only way you would consider CTB? There's lots of other methods out there that don't require waiting if you are in that much agony.
No, it isn't my only way, but it was my first, and most painless method. I really still want to ctb with this method, so I will try again a couple of times, maybe if I have to, with different sources. But if I have to, by the end of this year, I would try a different method. The only other method that I was going to do was drowning. I could try a gun, but I don't have one, and I'm really scared to pull the trigger. 😭 I just want the Sn to arrive so I can be with my dead boyfriend again, I love and miss him so much. I'm so tired of being alive and suffering!
source dmc? what does tracking say?
Yes it's DMC. Many people said that it arrived in less than two weeks, but I've been waiting for a month and a half. The tracking always says, since February 14th, "Your package will arrive later than expected, but it is still on its way. It's is currently in transit to the next facility." I think that means that they don't know exactly where it is😭. Like I said, if it doesn't come this month, then I will try to reorder it at the beginning of next month.😞
 
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ventingfrustrations

ventingfrustrations

Member
Mar 4, 2025
84
Omg, I can't believe it, but I'm still waiting for my Sn to arrive in the U.S. after almost a month and a half. I'm honestly starting to think it's not going to show up. I will try to reorder it again, if it doesn't show up this month, if not I will try to reorder it at the beginning of next month. I've been suffering so much.

It's just so unfair, I just want to die, I'm grieving so much over losing my dead boyfriend, why won't the universe just let me go be with him? I've seen so many posts of people only getting theirs after a few weeks? I feel like a fucking cursed human. Like PLEASE just let me fucking die! Can someone please help me cope with this? I'm tired of being alive, tired of suffering.
I'm sorry you are suffering and have seen your pain through your messages it is very clear you are in pain I hope you find peace
 
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ventingfrustrations

ventingfrustrations

Member
Mar 4, 2025
84
Thank you so much for saying that❤️😞
You're welcome I'm on here most times because I'm on the severe depression arc so I guess I pass the time of my existence trying to support and vent and cry and then just be and exist because I can only work DoorDash bike for so long as my legs are sore so I have to take a day off today and then tomorrow I have to get groceries
 
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