Started self-harming again...

[lovemelovemenot]

It's been about 3 years since the last time, but I broke that streak tonight. I went to a corner store across the street from my home and bought razors along with bandage wrap (sure earned me a funny look from the cashiere). I couldn't take all the thoughts. It's overwhelming. I just want to die. I've been planning with SN, but I was trying to wait a bit for certain reasons. Now I'm honestly not sure how much longer I'll be able to hold out...

I'm tired. And I'm ready to be done with it all.

 

[Dawn0071111]

I get it. Its so hard sometimes. The pain is overwhelming and suicide can be so difficult to achieve......

 

[pole]

sorry to hear :(. usually we need such an outlet to i guess, let out "how" we feel. and some people resort to recreational activities, others resort to cutting. ur not alone.

hope you find peace.

 

[BridgeJumper]

I feel you, Ive always been a cutter, and with every relapse its getting worse. I am so disfigured. My whole body from stomach to ankles is covered in scar tissue. Its the only way I can forget about the mental pain, by bringing about a physical one...

 

[sammii]

I just relapsed recently too after 5 years, you're not alone