Venting Speaking with someone that has hurt me

[Gstreater]

I have a formerly close friend that I have regular contact with that is partially the reason to why I've become more closed off and ended up even more depressed than before. She didn't mean to hurt me and I genuinely think she's a good person but because of what happened between us she pulled away emotionally as well. Now I'm not sure how to talk to her about how I feel anymore. She gives me words of encouragement when I talk about being depressed and my struggles but I feel like there's just a wall of pain and hurt so we can't talk like we used to anymore. I've told her before that I don't blame her but it's still been rough.