Venting she's truly happier with not talking to me.

[lovelulu]

This time its not even that 'she needs alone time', shes just..not talking to me. Im not giving up on her but im certain shes given up on me or just doesn't give a fuck about me anymore. Shes posting all this shit, reposting all this shit, etc—she just seems so much happier than when we are talking. it's so hard for me not to talk to her, but if that's what truly makes her happier I'll finally just leave her the fuck alone.

 

[Aflame5926]

This time its not even that 'she needs alone time', shes just..not talking to me. Im not giving up on her but im certain shes given up on me or just doesn't give a fuck about me anymore. Shes posting all this shit, reposting all this shit, etc—she just seems so much happier than when we are talking. it's so hard for me not to talk to her, but if that's what truly makes her happier I'll finally just leave her the fuck alone.

letting go is always rough man it takes time and maybe its for the best.
its gonna hurt for quite some time. just give it time to come to peace with it.

take care

 

[derpyderpins]

All I've got is that I'm sorry you're having to go through this heartache. Feeling alone, abandoned, unwanted, etc., are none pleasant. But the thing is that no matter who it is one person not being compatible or going in a different direction can't completely reflect on you.

Also, though, real talk, someone posting anything online is not evidence at all of their mental state. The few times I've had social media me posting things meant I was miserable and looking for some stimulation. But you can't assume either way, gotta respect her wishes and try to let your mind separate.

 

[The Disqualified]

This time its not even that 'she needs alone time', shes just..not talking to me. Im not giving up on her but im certain shes given up on me or just doesn't give a fuck about me anymore. Shes posting all this shit, reposting all this shit, etc—she just seems so much happier than when we are talking. it's so hard for me not to talk to her, but if that's what truly makes her happier I'll finally just leave her the fuck alone.

I often feared investing too much on one person and feeling vulnerable later. I empathize with you and understand, lovelulu.
I always feared appearing overly emotional or clingy, which perhaps has made me artifically distant and fearful of closeness. The idea of seeing people "move on" with their lives and "not caring" about you in their lives can be crushing. It implies more than abandonment, but also that one is secundary, emotionally disposable, and personally at fault for depending too much on the other person. This can hurt deeply, leaving a profound sense of bitterness behind. These perceptions aren't necessarily always accurate, but they feel so, especially if you are on a vulnerable mental space already.
I've come to suspect many people are just much more socially fluid than I am, and they don't think about our relationship as deeply as I do.
You sound overwhelmed. I wouldn't advise acting out of impulse, especially in this context, honestly. Your feelings are valid, but I wouldn't want to see you hurt yourself because of a single person not caring about you, even if they were your favorite person and you had a deep connection with them. At the end of the day, you can do whatever you want, but I am just saying you should think it through. What the user above said about "moving on" rings true as well. Here if you wish to talk, it may be hard taking all of that. Sending virtual hugs.

 

[aoseno perpetuo]

im sorry you're going through this and abandonment is torture

 

[Intense/Emotional]

I'm sorry you have to go through that; it's a horrible and miserable feeling to feel unwanted, it affects your self-esteem. I don't know how old you are, but I hope you can overcome it.