I cannot wait for the moment I take my final breath. The day my mind shuts off and I enter sweet oblivion. Life is the worst thing to ever happen to me. I will jump off the bridge and life will come to an end. Finally. I will no longer be a part of this evil world. When I hit the water full speed, it will all be over.
I don't have anyone in this world to go to. No one who cares—and why should they? I don't matter in the grand scheme of things. I'm just a burden to my loved ones. Nothing about me matters. Soon enough they will be free of me. No need to worry about my loss of sanity. I don't even think I'm insane. This is all a valid response for what's happening in the world. It feels like I'm the only one with a sane reaction to the evil in the world.
This world is a paradise for the wicked and the innocent get crushed. God favors the wicked. That much is clear to me. Evil wins 100% of the time for a reason and it isn't for a lack of effort on the "good" side. God favors the wicked and gives them everything and all they desire. Look at the administration. Look at all the wealthy and wicked religious leaders. All of those blessings are given by God. The rest of us chumps are lucky to get the fucking scraps. Scraps that are quickly being snatched away by the top dogs.
I have no intention in being in this world as things get worse. There is nothing to look forward to in life but suffering. God really put us all (expect the elite of society) in this world to suffer. How fucking cruel. And I can be considered one of the lucky ones. Look at the children in warzones. The children being kidnapped. Children raped and killed by elites and sick people. Those suffering from disease. This list can go on literally fucking forever. FOREVER. God has put a majority of people on this earth to SUFFER for his pleasure. He doesn't give a fuck about humanity except for his favorites. As a treat, they can rape a child or steal billions from those who need it most.
Every prayer and cry I make goes unanswered always. No point in anything. Some fucking God he is. Cruel, evil, and uncaring. UNLESS you're someone like Trump of course. Then you can do whatever you want with no consequences. No punishment.
Death will be so sweet. So nice. So freeing. All I want is death. Nothing else. And God refuses to grant me death, so I must take it into my own hands. The Golden Gate Bridge is the easiest way to do it. Hitting the net will hurt like hell, but jumping off and hitting the water will be exhilarating. I'll be free from all this pain, rage, and sorrow.
No one will care when I'm gone. Not one person. I'm meaningless in this world and in the eyes of God. Nothing matters. Unless you're evil. Then your life and existence matters.
I'm firm with my decision. It won't matter to anyone anyways. All my family tells me is that I don't care about them and you know what, maybe they're right. I don't care enough about them to want to be alive. This life is fucking hell. My call with my dad just solidified my resolve to kill myself. He's right. I don't care enough about my family's feelings to stay alive.
The only thing that thrives in this world is evil. God doesn't care for us. He's made that obvious.
I can't wait until all this suffering ends. I'm just done with it all. The world will never get better, only worse. There's no point to my life other than God putting me here just to suffer. He cares for nothing else. That's assuming there is a God. There could just not be. I really think God is cruel and uncaring. Look at this world. He doesn't care. He never did.
I need to just go through with it. Just take the jump and feel the relief of death. It will all be over soon. The pain and suffering will be over forever.
No one will care once I die. It will be so freeing. I won't be a burden again.
I am such a stupid idiot. I am ready to end my life. I don't deserve to be in my phd program. I am the greatest scammer of all time. I literally don't know what I am talking about. I can't understand what everyone else does. I am just an idiot. All the professors know I am just an idiot. I shouldn't be here. I am a burden to everyone and everything. I have no reason to live. I am nothing but a failure. I never had a chance in this world. God wants me dead. If he doesn't give a fuck about children being blown to bits in wars why would he give a fuck about me.
I need to throw myself off the bridge already. No one cares. God doesn't care.
They (family) keep telling me suicide isn't the answer, but it IS. Suicide is my answer. It is the only answer. It is freedom. It is no more emotional anguish or suffering. I will finally be free. I hope my body is lost at sea forever. At the very least my useless self can feed sea life or whatever animal finds me first.
I don't have anyone in this world to go to. No one who cares—and why should they? I don't matter in the grand scheme of things. I'm just a burden to my loved ones. Nothing about me matters. Soon enough they will be free of me. No need to worry about my loss of sanity. I don't even think I'm insane. This is all a valid response for what's happening in the world. It feels like I'm the only one with a sane reaction to the evil in the world.
This world is a paradise for the wicked and the innocent get crushed. God favors the wicked. That much is clear to me. Evil wins 100% of the time for a reason and it isn't for a lack of effort on the "good" side. God favors the wicked and gives them everything and all they desire. Look at the administration. Look at all the wealthy and wicked religious leaders. All of those blessings are given by God. The rest of us chumps are lucky to get the fucking scraps. Scraps that are quickly being snatched away by the top dogs.
I have no intention in being in this world as things get worse. There is nothing to look forward to in life but suffering. God really put us all (expect the elite of society) in this world to suffer. How fucking cruel. And I can be considered one of the lucky ones. Look at the children in warzones. The children being kidnapped. Children raped and killed by elites and sick people. Those suffering from disease. This list can go on literally fucking forever. FOREVER. God has put a majority of people on this earth to SUFFER for his pleasure. He doesn't give a fuck about humanity except for his favorites. As a treat, they can rape a child or steal billions from those who need it most.
Every prayer and cry I make goes unanswered always. No point in anything. Some fucking God he is. Cruel, evil, and uncaring. UNLESS you're someone like Trump of course. Then you can do whatever you want with no consequences. No punishment.
Death will be so sweet. So nice. So freeing. All I want is death. Nothing else. And God refuses to grant me death, so I must take it into my own hands. The Golden Gate Bridge is the easiest way to do it. Hitting the net will hurt like hell, but jumping off and hitting the water will be exhilarating. I'll be free from all this pain, rage, and sorrow.
No one will care when I'm gone. Not one person. I'm meaningless in this world and in the eyes of God. Nothing matters. Unless you're evil. Then your life and existence matters.
I'm firm with my decision. It won't matter to anyone anyways. All my family tells me is that I don't care about them and you know what, maybe they're right. I don't care enough about them to want to be alive. This life is fucking hell. My call with my dad just solidified my resolve to kill myself. He's right. I don't care enough about my family's feelings to stay alive.
The only thing that thrives in this world is evil. God doesn't care for us. He's made that obvious.
I can't wait until all this suffering ends. I'm just done with it all. The world will never get better, only worse. There's no point to my life other than God putting me here just to suffer. He cares for nothing else. That's assuming there is a God. There could just not be. I really think God is cruel and uncaring. Look at this world. He doesn't care. He never did.
I need to just go through with it. Just take the jump and feel the relief of death. It will all be over soon. The pain and suffering will be over forever.
No one will care once I die. It will be so freeing. I won't be a burden again.
I am such a stupid idiot. I am ready to end my life. I don't deserve to be in my phd program. I am the greatest scammer of all time. I literally don't know what I am talking about. I can't understand what everyone else does. I am just an idiot. All the professors know I am just an idiot. I shouldn't be here. I am a burden to everyone and everything. I have no reason to live. I am nothing but a failure. I never had a chance in this world. God wants me dead. If he doesn't give a fuck about children being blown to bits in wars why would he give a fuck about me.
I need to throw myself off the bridge already. No one cares. God doesn't care.
They (family) keep telling me suicide isn't the answer, but it IS. Suicide is my answer. It is the only answer. It is freedom. It is no more emotional anguish or suffering. I will finally be free. I hope my body is lost at sea forever. At the very least my useless self can feed sea life or whatever animal finds me first.
