Some last minute company?

[deathbyginger]

Hey,
We don't know each other but I just want to share a piece of advice.
I don't know your background story or how you've came to this point in your life, but regardless I know how you're feeling right now. Defeated a little I'm sure, right? That's okay, because I've been there before too. Actually twice now, the 2nd time I was sure it was gonna be the end for me. So sure that I decided it didn't matter if I informed anyone, didn't write notes this time or didn't make a good bye post. I just said, fuck it, this is my last day.
And you know what?
I'm still here. Cause I failed. I was in such a rush, that I failed to plan it all the way through.

I don't want to project anything on you, but it seems like you're perhaps making too quick of an exit. Suicide is not something to be rushed, if you rush it, you're likely to fail and even end up in a worst spot.

Here's what I think you should do, just call it a night. It's been a long day for you I'm sure. I think you could use the rest, and if you decide in the morning if this is right for you, then go ahead.

Ultimately, this is your decision. I just wouldn't want to see you regret it before it's too late hun.

 

[TooLate2582]

As a fellow BPD'er, I can relate. Hugs.

 

[Worndown]

Have a good journey.

 

[AlreadyGone]

I hope you find peace

 

[Worndown]

Or they will give you their number :)

Hmmm...a fun way to go!

 

[Cheshirecatx]

I'm hoping it doesn't come to that, but if I do at least I know I can come back here and chat with all you lovely people

Ironically I am a mental healthcare professional . Some of them are shit though. Like the GP that told me 'depressed people can't go to work', and the nurse who was disgustingly rude to me when I attempted to OD at 14. I think I've taken enough measure to ensure this is a rational decision for me

That is ironic! It's always the way. I suppose it seems more rational as you know your own mental health, and the system quite well. I hope you're still here personally, but I've always found professionals are horrid. We aren't that bad on here though

 

[BPDbitch]

I have never been so upset to be alive.

Couldn't pass out from my rope over the door method, and I've been left with a bitterly unpleasant headache.

Spoke to my partner about my suicidal intent, and now he is calling someone (I really hope not my family, but ambulance or police would be equally upsetting), and we also fell out about it which has upset me greatly.

God, I wish it was easier to die.
I also feel bad for making a goodbye thread and not going, even though I know that is ridiculous because I'm always glad when members end up not doing it. I'm just worried about where my night will go from here.

 

[UpandDownPrincess]

Wherever it leads, just follow for a bit. It won't likely be in your control, so play the game, answer the questions and hopefully you'll get a chance for a nice sleep soon.

I'm sorry today did not work out the way you wanted.

 

[Cheshirecatx]

I have never been so upset to be alive.

Couldn't pass out from my rope over the door method, and I've been left with a bitterly unpleasant headache.

Spoke to my partner about my suicidal intent, and now he is calling someone (I really hope not my family, but ambulance or police would be equally upsetting), and we also fell out about it which has upset me greatly.

God, I wish it was easier to die.
I also feel bad for making a goodbye thread and not going, even though I know that is ridiculous because I'm always glad when members end up not doing it. I'm just worried about where my night will go from here.

Hoping it won't end in anything major for you, it'll probably be a hospital visit but as long as you comply (as you'll know) there's probably less chance of you getting kept. It just wasn't the right day, but you learn from days like this. We make goodbye threads but none of us can defeat the odds. I hope it goes a bit better. Im always here for a chat.

 

[BPDbitch]

Police have been called, I'm waiting for their arrival and possibly a trip to hospital to receive something for my bpd

 

[sickInsominic42]

I have never been so upset to be alive.

Couldn't pass out from my rope over the door method, and I've been left with a bitterly unpleasant headache.

Spoke to my partner about my suicidal intent, and now he is calling someone (I really hope not my family, but ambulance or police would be equally upsetting), and we also fell out about it which has upset me greatly.

God, I wish it was easier to die.
I also feel bad for making a goodbye thread and not going, even though I know that is ridiculous because I'm always glad when members end up not doing it. I'm just worried about where my night will go from here.

We

I have never been so upset to be alive.

Couldn't pass out from my rope over the door method, and I've been left with a bitterly unpleasant headache.

Spoke to my partner about my suicidal intent, and now he is calling someone (I really hope not my family, but ambulance or police would be equally upsetting), and we also fell out about it which has upset me greatly.

God, I wish it was easier to die.
I also feel bad for making a goodbye thread and not going, even though I know that is ridiculous because I'm always glad when members end up not doing it. I'm just worried about where my night will go from here.

Don't feel bad for reconsidering. We love you and want you to know your not alone. I hope that who ever comes into the picture after this helps you and doesn't make you feel worse.

 

[mesohappy]

Police have been called, I'm waiting for their arrival and possibly a trip to hospital to receive something for my bpd

Hopefully you get some legit help/meds..The shot of Thorazine and rest is always nice.Im glad you will be hanging around awhile..No pun intended.

 

[sickInsominic42]

Police have been called, I'm waiting for their arrival and possibly a trip to hospital to receive something for my bpd

We love you and support you

 

[Worndown]

Police have been called, I'm waiting for their arrival and possibly a trip to hospital to receive something for my bpd

If you are here, lets hope for success.

 

[Ange_Fatigue]

Hope you ll recover fast with bpd meds. May they help you to feel better. Be string, hospital is not fun.

 

[LastRide]

Police have been called, I'm waiting for their arrival and possibly a trip to hospital to receive something for my bpd

Sorry about the police....that's annoying ! I wish you peace in the future or at least someone to strangle you as he fucks your brains out.....whichever is easiest to find ! Might be neither....

 

[BPDbitch]

In A&E now. My head is pounding

 

[sickInsominic42]

In A&E now. My head is pounding

I'm sorry your going through this. I hope your head feels better

 

[Nowayoutjose]

This place is fucked up. Can't decide if I feel happy or sad reading this. I really hope you get better.

 

[Conker]

Here to provide some company, about to catch some snooze though..

what music if any have you heard recently?

 

[sickInsominic42]

Here to provide some company, about to catch some snooze though..

any jams you listening to on your way out?

Her boyfriend called an ambulance ask she's in the hospital rn

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

I hope the meds help and I really hope that headache goes away

 

[MachinaArcana]

Truly sorry to read what you had to go through today. Honestly don't know what to say, just wanted to send you a big, warm hug.

 

[Justhere]

hugs

 

[bpdandme]

Big BPD hugs, hope you're okay. This experience will pass, we are all still here for you. If you ever need to chat to someone who understands BPD, please message me.

 

[BPDbitch]

Finally home. Worn out, worried my relationship won't recover, but in a much better place now funnily.
My flatmates think I'm a freak now, though, so that's fantastic.

 

[Suicide_vampire]

Hey there, glad you're home and feeling in a better place. Get some rest now. I'm always here if you want to chat x

 

[PoisonedJuliet]

Who cares what they think. I'm glad you're home. Please get some much needed rest because I'm sure you're exhausted. And I'm so happy to hear you're in a better place now, that's wonderful news

 

[Lostandfound7]

Happy ur back n that they didn't keep u! Get some rest..we're here for u

 

[Lady Lazarus 2020]

Finally home. Worn out, worried my relationship won't recover, but in a much better place now funnily.
My flatmates think I'm a freak now, though, so that's fantastic.

just getting caught up today. i missed this whole thing today. I am SO glad that you are ok.