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rigsid

rigsid

Hopefully dying on the 14th of March
Jan 31, 2026
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There's a few methods I'd be willing to try (SN, KN, Fentanyl, Cyanide, et cetera) but it feels like it's impossible to get anything like that in the UK.

I know there's supposedly suppliers but I guess im dumb or something because I've had no luck.

I just want to die. If I had the drugs in front of me i know i could do it. Why does it have to be so hard?

I dont want to have to resort to something horrific like jumping in front of a train.
 
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FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
47,990
I really understand, I see so much terrible cruelty in how the option to painlessly cease existing is so cruelly denied, I always suffer so much from existing in this horrific anti-suicide world where the suffering and torture of existing is seen as to force and prolong no matter what, all I want is to never suffer again. I just want peace from this dreadful, torturous existence that just causes suffering, the fact that there isn't the option to just cease existing painlessly is such a terrible unacceptable crime that only ever causes way more torture, I hope you find the freedom you search for.
 
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metfan647

Specialist
Jun 12, 2025
346
We're probably in no less an advantageous or more a disadvantageous position than a lot of others. It seems a lot of different nationalities here are having to use the same source to get hold of chemicals.

Guns readily at our disposal is what we really lack here.
 
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RinneOfAragon

Student
Jan 2, 2025
178
the method I'm leaning on now is charcoal in a tent. everything else is hard to get or freaks out my SI
 
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rigsid

rigsid

Hopefully dying on the 14th of March
Jan 31, 2026
110
We're probably in no less an advantageous or more a disadvantageous position than a lot of others. It seems a lot of different nationalities here are having to use the same source to get hold of chemicals.

Guns readily at our disposal is what we really lack here.
Yeah. It's hard most places including the UK. They can't have their young wageslaves dying off. I don't think I could shoot myself but for those who can it's a really reliable method.
the method I'm leaning on now is charcoal in a tent. everything else is hard to get or freaks out my SI
Is there a thread on that method? I'd be willing to at least consider it.
 
Ghandi

Ghandi

Student
Mar 2, 2024
150
There's a few methods I'd be willing to try (SN, KN, Fentanyl, Cyanide, et cetera) but it feels like it's impossible to get anything like that in the UK.

I know there's supposedly suppliers but I guess im dumb or something because I've had no luck.

I just want to die. If I had the drugs in front of me i know i could do it. Why does it have to be so hard?

I dont want to have to resort to something horrific like jumping in front of a train.
A large number of this forum are or were in the UK, proving that it's not as hard as initially seems.
 
Untoten_

Untoten_

Will be CTBing this year.
Jan 29, 2026
130
A large number of this forum are or were in the UK, proving that it's not as hard as initially seems.
Icl it still sucks though. At this rate I might just do full suspension off a tree or something.
 
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rigsid

Hopefully dying on the 14th of March
Jan 31, 2026
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A large number of this forum are or were in the UK, proving that it's not as hard as initially seems.
I mean I guess? Most suicidal people don't commit suicide for a reason though. It's hard to kill yourself, especially when easier methods aren't available.

Im hoping I'm an exception but I'll see
 

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