nevermeant2b
Member
- Sep 11, 2023
- 43
So I've been here a while, on and off, things seem to be getting worse for me, mentally and physically.
I'm in therapy but it feels like a lost cause as I never seem to improve and nothing seems to work, of course I'm extremely grateful for all the help been thrown my way but when is the time to say that it's enough and to accept this is it, and ultimately stop wasting everyone's time and resources.
I have mental health problems that affect every aspect of living, some really don't understand the troubles you deal with, they try but never on the same level you are experiencing them, I was fairly recently (4 years) diagnosed with a rare disease with no treatment or good out comes and basically suffer until death. I obviously want to avoid this.
I have been on an off suicidal for a number of years and have attempted in the passed but because my mental health was in such a bad place, over the years it got worse with added diagnoses affecting my quality of life, and again trying to explain what you are going through to professionals becomes difficult, you tell so many that each time you meet some one new you end up leaving more and more out each time just because your tired of explaining to be again misunderstood or not fully understood.
I have one dr who is absolutely amazing, and had a sort of cpn who also was amazing but with cuts and budgets they can only do so much.
Mental health was one thing but added on stuff just takes the biscuit.
I have been sourcing SN with difficulty, many manufacturers tend to either need proof of a professional establishment or some sort of identification, being in the uk it seems they have cracked down hard, other places will only sell in bulk and I'd want to avoid buying in bulk for many reasons, financial being one but also I don't want to sink a lot of money into it to be seized another is I'm told it can be used as a b***, so want to avoid anything like that.
I know asking here on the forum isn't advised so I will avoid that. But I guess im just venting on the frustration that I found a method I feel right for me, a yet the government shaft you.
I know it will only be a matter of time before I acquire it one way or another
I hope everyone's doing as ok as they can be.
If anyone knows of a source please let me know.
I'm in therapy but it feels like a lost cause as I never seem to improve and nothing seems to work, of course I'm extremely grateful for all the help been thrown my way but when is the time to say that it's enough and to accept this is it, and ultimately stop wasting everyone's time and resources.
I have mental health problems that affect every aspect of living, some really don't understand the troubles you deal with, they try but never on the same level you are experiencing them, I was fairly recently (4 years) diagnosed with a rare disease with no treatment or good out comes and basically suffer until death. I obviously want to avoid this.
I have been on an off suicidal for a number of years and have attempted in the passed but because my mental health was in such a bad place, over the years it got worse with added diagnoses affecting my quality of life, and again trying to explain what you are going through to professionals becomes difficult, you tell so many that each time you meet some one new you end up leaving more and more out each time just because your tired of explaining to be again misunderstood or not fully understood.
I have one dr who is absolutely amazing, and had a sort of cpn who also was amazing but with cuts and budgets they can only do so much.
Mental health was one thing but added on stuff just takes the biscuit.
I have been sourcing SN with difficulty, many manufacturers tend to either need proof of a professional establishment or some sort of identification, being in the uk it seems they have cracked down hard, other places will only sell in bulk and I'd want to avoid buying in bulk for many reasons, financial being one but also I don't want to sink a lot of money into it to be seized another is I'm told it can be used as a b***, so want to avoid anything like that.
I know asking here on the forum isn't advised so I will avoid that. But I guess im just venting on the frustration that I found a method I feel right for me, a yet the government shaft you.
I know it will only be a matter of time before I acquire it one way or another
I hope everyone's doing as ok as they can be.
If anyone knows of a source please let me know.
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