sn is going to be my final hope

[Lifeis_Jouissance70]

I want to start the 2 day regime tomorrow.

I have given this thought of ctb for a year now, so this is not spontanious or a impulse. Its been on my mind longer than anyone I've thought of. Suicide is like the only thing I think about at night. I wish it was someone I thought of every night. But no its suicide.

 

[Lost_my_soul]

I want to start the 2 day regime tomorrow.

I have given this thought of ctb for a year now, so this is not spontanious or a impulse. Its been on my mind longer than anyone I've thought of. Suicide is like the only thing I think about at night. I wish it was someone I thought of every night. But no its suicide.

It was great talking to you, hope it all ends well and you find peace that you really deserve.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

I wish you all the best with your plan and I hope you find peace! Good luck!

 

[WAITING TO DIE]

I will be sorry to see you go yet I hope you finally manage to leave this cruel existence behind forever and find the peace you deserve.

 

[FuneralCry]

I wish you the best of luck with your plans.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

I want to start the 2 day regime tomorrow.

I have given this thought of ctb for a year now, so this is not spontanious or a impulse. Its been on my mind longer than anyone I've thought of. Suicide is like the only thing I think about at night. I wish it was someone I thought of every night. But no its suicide.

I wish you all the best with everything even though it's difficult to see you go.

 

[Lifeis_Jouissance70]

I wish you all the best with everything even though it's difficult to see you go.

Its ok. I will have found what I wanted in the end if all goes to plan

I wish you the best of luck with your plans.

Thank you so much, I am hoping all goes well. This pro life world really does suck for people like me, it shows zero sympathy to ones suffering, I hope someday in the future that will all change so the ones who truly wish to find there peace can leave peacefully.

I will be sorry to see you go yet I hope you finally manage to leave this cruel existence behind forever and find the peace you deserve.

I'd have found what I desire for so long, an eternal sleep. I think I deserve to die, because death is just mercy. Theres so much suffering I go through daily. I truly need to just leave peacefully and non violently like I wanted to.

I wish you all the best with your plan and I hope you find peace! Good luck!

I truly hope I have the best of luck. I hope for you and everyone else to find peace as well wether its to continue on or choose to ctb.

It was great talking to you, hope it all ends well and you find peace that you really deserve.

It was great to know you as well, and everyone who I've seen post on this site.

Wishing everyone to find what they are searching for.

Much love to everyone I've seen post here, and thank you to the ones who became my friend here it was truly wonderful to have known you all even if I didnt interact or speak much.

 

[justcallmeJ]

Im sorry to see you go. I wish you peace whatever happens.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Its ok. I will have found what I wanted in the end if all goes to plan

How are you feeling now and I take it you've started your regimen already.

 

[Lifeis_Jouissance70]

Hi
Update: It failed(not entirely i did not throw up).. I felt a lot of pain. I couldnt drink all of it. I felt my chest tighten and my stomach hurt so badly and my heart was pumping. Sn is so bad tasting it is so salty I could not drink the whole thing at all. Worst tasting thing I have ever tasted. I wouldnt consider it a complete fail, I just learned more about sn, that it is so salty. Im surprised i did not die. Its like getting a mouth full of ocean water but even worse.

 

[Deleted member 65988]

Hi
Update: It failed(not entirely i did not throw up).. I felt a lot of pain. I couldnt drink all of it. I felt my chest tighten and my stomach hurt so badly and my heart was pumping. Sn is so bad tasting it is so salty I could not drink the whole thing at all. Worst tasting thing I have ever tasted. I wouldnt consider it a complete fail, I just learned more about sn, that it is so salty. Im surprised i did not die. Its like getting a mouth full of ocean water but even worse.

Hey, I'm absolutely happy to see you still around even if you are not feeling well. I was worried after our chat had ended that since you didn't drink all of it, there was a chance you weren't going to ctb and that you were going to need help. I hope you got any medical help possible after such an experience.

I do recall you said it was somewhat peaceful, did the symptoms get worse as things progressed and did you get to a point of unconscious at all?

 

[wieu73]

Hi
Update: It failed(not entirely i did not throw up).. I felt a lot of pain. I couldnt drink all of it. I felt my chest tighten and my stomach hurt so badly and my heart was pumping. Sn is so bad tasting it is so salty I could not drink the whole thing at all. Worst tasting thing I have ever tasted. I wouldnt consider it a complete fail, I just learned more about sn, that it is so salty. Im surprised i did not die. Its like getting a mouth full of ocean water but even worse.

How many gram did you use? Like NNg in NNml water can you give me information? And I'm so sorry to hear that you fail I hope you succeed next time