Should be past all this....but dying is all I can think about.

[born.to.die]

No one understands.
When I say I'm depressed, they think im just a little sad.
Every day is torture. But I can't risk failing again.
I'm already the girl who sucks at killing herself.
I can't wake up to everyone happy that I survived. I can't go through that again.
I need out. I don't even care if it counts as suicide, that's not what is important.
All I can think about is different paths to death.
Which one is going to be the straightest line.

 

[FuneralCry]

It's really horrible how we cannot just cease existing in peace when we wish to, dying on our own terms really shouldn't be so unnecessarily difficult, it must had been so awful failing an suicide attempt. But anyway I hope that you eventually find the freedom you are searching for.