Religious delusions in relation to suicidal ideation

[burninghill]

I hate posting twice in one night but both things I had to say were totally unrelated, so…

I genuinely know I'm done for when I start getting religious delusions again. I went out today for once and started to cry because I was watching and reading things about Jesus and how it's said that human sinfulness usually has divine purpose and that there's a divine nature to sacrifice.

I've always felt like I was meant to die, like it's some sort of predetermined destiny of mine. I don't think it's as, you know, elaborate as the death of Jesus but I do think my death will mean something and I think it's important that I've been suicidal for this long. It's definitely for a reason.

 

[Macedonian1987]

I hate posting twice in one night but both things I had to say were totally unrelated, so…

I genuinely know I'm done for when I start getting religious delusions again. I went out today for once and started to cry because I was watching and reading things about Jesus and how it's said that human sinfulness usually has divine purpose and that there's a divine nature to sacrifice.

I've always felt like I was meant to die, like it's some sort of predetermined destiny of mine. I don't think it's as, you know, elaborate as the death of Jesus but I do think my death will mean something and I think it's important that I've been suicidal for this long. It's definitely for a reason.

Like you I also felt that I was going to die young. I had this feeling ever since I was just 16 years old. I never thought I would live up to the age of 39. How I managed to stay alive so long... I don't even know it myself.

Imagine living 39 years feeling like you are living on a wrong planet, avoided by all even though you are a good person, and never loved by anyone. Add chronic ailments in the last 10 years on top of it all and you see what kind of life I had

 

[burninghill]

Like you I also felt that I was going to die young. I had this feeling ever since I was just 16 years old. I never thought I would live up to the age of 39. How I managed to stay alive so long... I don't even know it myself.

Imagine living 39 years feeling like you are living on a wrong planet, avoided by all even though you are a good person, and never loved by anyone. Add chronic ailments in the last 10 years on top of it all and you see what kind of life I had

I'm really sorry man

 

[Aflame5926]

Like you I also felt that I was going to die young. I had this feeling ever since I was just 16 years old. I never thought I would live up to the age of 39. How I managed to stay alive so long... I don't even know it myself.

Imagine living 39 years feeling like you are living on a wrong planet, avoided by all even though you are a good person, and never loved by anyone. Add chronic ailments in the last 10 years on top of it all and you see what kind of life I had

not much younger but same staredt only from 5 to me
i think that is a pattern i see a lot. lots of people already had something starting when they were young