Discussion regrets from the past

[WanderingTiger]

Has anyone ever made mistakes in the past that they deeply regret? I have done many horrible things in the past, and certainly, my selfish and immoral actions haunt me every day. The regret tortures me, knowing that I can never change the past, and it makes me want to escape this existence more and more.

 

[DivineSpark]

Yeah, I did something. Something I cannot change anymore. I regret, I suffer because of those decisions in life, but I guess, I just gotta keep going. Focus on survival.

 

[WanderingTiger]

Yeah, I did something. Something I cannot change anymore. I regret, I suffer because of those decisions in life, but I guess, I just gotta keep going. Focus on survival.

It's a very terrible feeling, the worst being the people who may misunderstand regret and judge us for the actions we've taken without compassion.

 

[SVEN]

Absolutely, but they're not things I'd want to share and I can do nothing about them but regret, pointlessly.

 

[Terribledays]

Honestly, I don't acknowledge my guilt, but if there is a hell, I hope I'm going there.

 

[Kbeau]

Has anyone ever made mistakes in the past that they deeply regret? I have done many horrible things in the past, and certainly, my selfish and immoral actions haunt me every day. The regret tortures me, knowing that I can never change the past, and it makes me want to escape this existence more and more.

I hear ya

 

[inverse-weibull]

I feel the same. I've made so many mistakes and hurt so many people and it pains me so much that I can never go back and change any of it.

 

[WanderingTiger]

I feel the same. I've made so many mistakes and hurt so many people and it pains me so much that I can never go back and change any of it.

It is very painful to feel this.

 

[TheShadows]

Has anyone ever made mistakes in the past that they deeply regret? I have done many horrible things in the past, and certainly, my selfish and immoral actions haunt me every day. The regret tortures me, knowing that I can never change the past, and it makes me want to escape this existence more and more.

I have done many selfish things in the past that i regret, i understand how you feel.

 

[Ligottian]

I regret everything.

- Richard Burton, line from Whose Afraid of Virginia Woolf?

 

[lawr]

I have a long, long list of regrets. But I don't blame myself for what I've done however. I was young and confused and alone and didn't know any better after all.

 

[2minutes2ctb]

To everyone here who cannot live anymore with the weight of your own mistakes, how do you go through life ?
Just curious about what makes you wake up every morning, knowing that things will never be the same again.

 

[marronfoncé]

To everyone here who cannot live anymore with the weight of your own mistakes, how do you go through life ?
Just curious about what makes you wake up every morning, knowing that things will never be the same again.

curious too

 

[DarknessWave]

I regret a lot of decision i made in the past, i wish i never did them.

 

[divinemistress87]

Yes, it haunts me so much. I cant live in the present. Regret and shame are to strong. Therapy hasnt helped that mindset

 

[TheSeeker]

It doesn't really matter in the end. All regrets and those who remember regrets will be forgotten in the end.

 

[pthnrdnojvsc]

yes. i've had SN for 5 years. thousands of days, thousands of hours wasted, every hour i could have killed myself i regret i didn't.

i had a shotgun 3 years every hour wasted 1000 days i could've shot myself . i regret it

 

[Chichisaysbey]

I made a bad decision in the past, and now I can't do anything about my regret, the nightmare haunts me every single day.
I only can tell myself: It's okay to look back at the past, just don't stare.

 

[Michelstaedter]

At first, I didn't give much thought to the pets I had, which cost two of them their lives.
Fervently searching for "the love" of a girl.
Having escaped from a very young age with porn and fapping to cope with depression.

I would write more, but it would make the post longer.

 

[altkey]

Has anyone ever made mistakes in the past that they deeply regret? I have done many horrible things in the past, and certainly, my selfish and immoral actions haunt me every day. The regret tortures me, knowing that I can never change the past, and it makes me want to escape this existence more and more.

Yes, and the regrets grow deeper more and more, im not sure how much longer I can stand them

 

[needinghelp]

It's the mistake I've made and the repercussions on the lives of those I love and who love me. I can do only one thing now and I need to do it soon. My clock is ticking and I need to find the courage to match my feelings of hopelessness. If I can find that courage I can do what I need to do sooner rather than later.

Do others find their resolve to ctb gets better and stronger nearer to their decision day ?

 

[daysfeel]

Yes. I've done some pretty disgusting things. It eats me alive sometimes. I don't even know how to forgive myself even though I was super young and didn't know better. Maybe it's just important to remember everything you've done is more common than you'd think?