[Regimen/Goodbye] ☆STRIKE ME DOWN!☆

[Delia]

Damn you're leaving before me :'/. I wish I would've known you way long ago, you seem like an incredible person I'd have had a field trip with tbh. I wish you safe travels if you decide you really want to go.

 

[Flightlinek]

I hope you have a peaceful transition.

 

[Soul]

I'm sorry life and hope have failed you. I hope you're somewhere secure and comfortable both mentally and physically as you approach your exit. I hope everything goes smoothly; journey well x

 

[CynicalHopelessness]

I'll miss you. Good luck

 

[voyager]

Looks like people do care after all, @charlottewilts :)

As always, it's sad to lose another member and I'm sorry for you that it has come to this. Wishing you a peaceful exit and a better place. Take care.

 

[Mooshi]

Good luck, I wish you a peaceful exit

 

[LMLN]

So sorry to see you go. Peace and love to you. ❤❤❤

 

[MachinaArcana]

I hope you have a smooth, comfortable and peaceful journey.
Wish you the best.
Hugs.

 

[Skyview]

Ships in the night ; we see you as you draw near to us , we keep you in sight for as long as possible , as your journey takes you away from us .
Peace and happiness surround you in your voyage

 

[WhiteEyes]

You seem very committed.
Hope everything works out for you.

 

[Deleted member 1465]

Sad to see you go. I hope you find peace whatever you decide.

 

[Shero]

I wish you the best, i'll be here.

 

[Nemeshisu]

It's so sad to see such a kind and wonderful person leave. I want to thank you so much. I wish I would be able to meet you sooner and spent more time with you. I really enjoyed brief conversations we had. Talking to you encouraged me to return to and pursue my passion of reading Japanese literature during my days before my CTB date. And thank you for sharing BSD Bibliophile Online Library with me. I was searching for translations of japanese works to English for so long. You really helped me. It was nice to meet fellow fan of Osamu Dazai's works here on this forum. I will miss you so much and I am sure that a lot of other SS members will too. I hope that you won't feel too much pain and that you will find peace.

 

[LonelyHopelessDude]

It's sad to see you go..
But I guess it's also a new beginning, we don't know what's on the other side, tell us what's at the end of the tunnel !
Anyways I'll be joining you soon after your ride to the unknown and I can only which you a peaceful exit ! With a lot of love !

 

[AlreadyGone]

I hope you have a smooth and peaceful exit.

 

[Circles]

Hope you're doing alright considering. Peace to you @charlottewilts.

 

[HadEnough1974]

I wish you peace and I'm hoping that this is what you truly want. That you're not doing this out of impulse. As cliche as this may sound, you're capable of so many things and you can make a difference in the world. I'm not at all trying to convince you to stay with us longer as this is a pro-choice forum. Although I don't really care to be here any longer, I believe deep down that EACH on of us can make a difference. Even me, and I feel absolutely worthless and useless.

You seem like you've thought this through, so I have faith that this is what you want and not out of impulse. Whether you choose to continue with your plan or not, we're here to support you 100%. I'm wishing you the best friend!! ❤ Hugs from Canada

Hello fellow Canadian.

 

[Despondent]

Hello fellow Canadian.

Hello other fellow Canadian!! :)

 

[shadowchaser]

I'm so sorry it has come to this <3 I wish you all the peace in the world and support no matter what you decide. You seem like a beautiful person from your posts and presence on this site. Hugs, friend

 

[crybaby]

It is sad to see you go
I hope you find peace

 

[Jean4]

We are all for you sending love. Your routine looks good, but am posting Stan's guide as tradition

https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/stans-guide-to-sn.27535/

 

[jgm63]

Wishing you a safe passage to a new start somewhere beautiful

 

[MysticPerception]

I must be blind for having missed this thread until now. Gonna miss your posts, and your personality isn't tepid. Good luck, and I hope you find peace and anything else you're looking for if there is an afterlife. If there isn't one, well rest easy at least.

 

[R_N]

Wondering what happened, she made her profile hidden. I hope you are still here. ;-(

 

[charlottewilts]

i tried to write replies to everyone who posted but it got way too long and sappy so i'll save you some time and merely say i'm very grateful to everyone and that you will all choose what's best for you. remember, when thinking about suicide, be calm, cool and collected. don't make rash decisions based on your current situation or let yourself be influenced by anyone else's stance on it; consider the option objectively and logically. if you still wish to proceed, i wish you luck and peace.

i can't edit my post anymore so i'd just like to mention i didn't actually have very much phytic acid; i don't have much of an appetite nowadays. "It's just like putting gas in a car that don't have no motor," to quote a prisoner on death row when asked about his last meal. i'd also like to mention that i will be taking 5 x 40mg of propranolol 75 minutes prior to taking SN. i decided to give it more time to do its thing, and also to up the dose since i won't be taking benzos. i'm female, 6 feet and 11 stone if it helps any. furthermore, my SN - which i received a month ago - is as hard as a rock (it's still sealed, but i've shaken it). i'm rather sure this is because it's laboratory grade & doesn't contain anti-caking agents and not because it has turned into nitrate. if i succeed, i hope it alleviates concern for those of you whose SN is in the same condition.

here's a cringe poem i wrote on the topic, i usually do satirical stuff so it's not very good.

many a night i spent praying to God
every inch of my flesh scarred
"kill me, kill me, kill me" i cried
God sent me an angel, tar black wings
and a halo made out of pills
and finally my last breath i sighed
with words carved into my thigh
and finally
i die

i'll lurk and perhaps post a bit more until i go. i'll assess how lethargic i feel before drinking the SN; if i feel too drowsy beforehand, i won't be liveblogging the experience so i don't accidentally lose consciousness before i manage to log out. if i don't post here again and am banned on Monday chances are good i succeeded. i asked a mod to be banned after some time and a friend to post the article on this thread if there're any news on it.

wishing you all the best.

 

[LordHector]

My fellow sisi hope your last moments are as sweet as your sweetest years. Maybe put some good music on? Kudos and hugs.

 

[SpaceForGrace]

Comfort, peace and grace.

 

[TheOA]

Joy and peace to you...

 

[astro]

safe journey <3

 

[Shivani]

my SN - which i received a month ago - is as hard as a rock (it's still sealed, but i've shaken it). i'm rather sure this is because it's laboratory grade & doesn't contain anti-caking agents and not because it has turned into nitrate. if i succeed, i hope it alleviates concern for those of you whose SN is in the same condition.

Thank you so much for the above , I was losing my mind over the hardened SN, feeling reassured now.

Wishing you strength and hope you find your peace