WinterIsComing
Fragile...
- May 27, 2019
- 256
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existenceispain88
Member
- Jul 6, 2020
- 16
Somebody
The Answer is 42
- Feb 16, 2021
- 25
24M- Minnesota
Looking for a second chance at life. Recently lost someone close to me, and not sure if I can do this alone. I still want to recover. Maybe lightning will strike me twice. Who knows ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Anyways, have a great day to whoever reads this.
Looking for a second chance at life. Recently lost someone close to me, and not sure if I can do this alone. I still want to recover. Maybe lightning will strike me twice. Who knows ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ Anyways, have a great day to whoever reads this.
Hi,
I'm a 25 yo girl from the eastern part of the EU. I've been self isolating for a year and thus I find myself reaching for people on the depths of the internet because I've constantly felt lonely. I'm not sure how I arrived here, as I'm not looking at suicide as an option (more like a fantasy), but the people on this forum seem really kind.
I'm also not actively into any sort of recovery besides regarding my physical health (which down-spiralled last year).
If anyone thinks that it would mutually benefit to talk/get a new friend, send me a message.
I'm a 25 yo girl from the eastern part of the EU. I've been self isolating for a year and thus I find myself reaching for people on the depths of the internet because I've constantly felt lonely. I'm not sure how I arrived here, as I'm not looking at suicide as an option (more like a fantasy), but the people on this forum seem really kind.
I'm also not actively into any sort of recovery besides regarding my physical health (which down-spiralled last year).
If anyone thinks that it would mutually benefit to talk/get a new friend, send me a message.
fireplace19
What’s the use of burning red hot?
- Feb 7, 2021
- 15
shelbywelby02
Member
- Nov 30, 2020
- 37
JusttryingtoDeal
Member
- Feb 21, 2021
- 9
48 M USA. Looking for someone to exchange recovery ideas as I am trying again with doctors and prescribed meds. I do not like therapists, strangers who share similar experiences are much more reliable!
gus.nixon
and now we rise and we are everywhere
- Apr 19, 2020
- 309
49 yo male here from U.S. Just trying to change my perspective. I've been seriously suicidal since last April and I think about it every day.
throwaway123
Hell0
- Aug 5, 2018
- 1,446
19 male Europe
message me and we can chat on discord or something.
I am absolutely destroyed but still trying to recover every single day.
I want to talk about the weirdness of life and death and it'll mostly just be CTB talk.
message me and we can chat on discord or something.
I am absolutely destroyed but still trying to recover every single day.
I want to talk about the weirdness of life and death and it'll mostly just be CTB talk.
hi there, i am a 37 yr old male, from the west side , respekct! 
. I have dealt with major issues in my life from an early age on, including childhood abuse, and witnessing two suicide attempts. I was also born with neurosurgical issues, which required ongoing surgery, but now there is nothing more that drs can do for me, except for prescribing medications. Lost my mother at a relatively young age due to cancer.
I have to continue to live my life, and in a productive manner, in pain, accepting my circumstances, or I could give-up. I feel it is inappropriate for me to commit suicide as I have been living under these circumstances for 37 years, yet it is a struggle, a day to day struggle. My future looks rather grim, but there is not much that I can do about it, except for doing my part. I have never tried to commit suicide before. I do not do illegal drugs, i don't smoke.
I love traveling (too much), music. My biggest love is for animals. I don't like complaining too much, as I feel that negativity leads to nothing but negativity. I really need to focus on survival. Maybe you can relate, maybe you also trying to make the best of your life, enjoying the little things. Maybe you want to connect, maybe not.
. I have dealt with major issues in my life from an early age on, including childhood abuse, and witnessing two suicide attempts. I was also born with neurosurgical issues, which required ongoing surgery, but now there is nothing more that drs can do for me, except for prescribing medications. Lost my mother at a relatively young age due to cancer.I have to continue to live my life, and in a productive manner, in pain, accepting my circumstances, or I could give-up. I feel it is inappropriate for me to commit suicide as I have been living under these circumstances for 37 years, yet it is a struggle, a day to day struggle. My future looks rather grim, but there is not much that I can do about it, except for doing my part. I have never tried to commit suicide before. I do not do illegal drugs, i don't smoke.
I love traveling (too much), music. My biggest love is for animals. I don't like complaining too much, as I feel that negativity leads to nothing but negativity. I really need to focus on survival. Maybe you can relate, maybe you also trying to make the best of your life, enjoying the little things. Maybe you want to connect, maybe not.
gus.nixon
and now we rise and we are everywhere
- Apr 19, 2020
- 309
Wish this thread was more active. I've met a lot of great people here and it's made me realize that we're all basically the same when we get to the point where death seems like the only option left. Some days I have no hope and I feel overwhelmed by life. Today I feel ok and I feel some hope so here I am again in the recovery partners thread. It would be great to develop a whole network for ourselves with suicide recovery being our main goal. A safe place where we can all devote our time to lifting each other up and listening and relating. I really do love you all.
NeverSatisfied
Experienced
- Dec 28, 2020
- 225
22 yo US female. Looking for someone to talk to to be an active recovery partner with. I think sharing our traumas and past experiences is helpful and I also want someone I can talk to day-by-day and see how we're improving as we keep trucking along. There will be highs and lows for both of us and I accept that no matter how deep the rut gets or how long it goes on for- we'll get out of there. Basically, looking for someone active in their recovery to talk to about both past and progress.
I wish there were other oldies in here. :(
Somage
Member
- Jan 30, 2021
- 56
deadinsideforever
Member
- Mar 31, 2021
- 30
45 non binary, UK trying desperately to want to be alive. Don't mind any gender or age. Would love to find a friend
Have PTSD, medication resistant depression with manic episodes, fibromyalgia, arthritis and CFS. But I am also a brilliant listener!
Have PTSD, medication resistant depression with manic episodes, fibromyalgia, arthritis and CFS. But I am also a brilliant listener!
Enabran255
Numbed
- Oct 2, 2019
- 101
41 year old guy in the US.
I've been struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts for at least the last decade, kicked off by some brutal bullying in college that destroyed my life. These feelings have gotten worse in recent years, ever since I lost a close friend of mine in 2019. I knew her for several years, it was a painful experience of getting very close and then seeing things inexorably deteriorate over the last handful of years. The life situation my chronic long term depression had placed me in made me powerless to change anything or prevent our drifting apart.
In the time since she passed, I've made a few attempts at recovery but they haven't succeeded. These suffocating lockdowns going on all over the world have made it very difficult to meet new people and make friends. The thing I struggle the most with these days is the pronounced feeling of isolation and loneliness, which leads to bouts of sharp despair that bring me to the verge of tears.
It would be nice to make some new friends with shared interests, who are accepting and can empathize with the darker feelings of life I mentioned above. I am an emotional/empathic person and am good with supporting close/trusted friends in those areas.
As for my interests, I've watched a ton of anime over the years and still do, I probably qualify as a weeb. I used to game a lot, I haven't as much lately but in the past I played various titles like Stardew Valley, Splatoon, most of the Zeldas including botw, Terraria, and jrpgs. Some other things I'm into are programming, reading (mostly VNs in recent years) and music.
I've been struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts for at least the last decade, kicked off by some brutal bullying in college that destroyed my life. These feelings have gotten worse in recent years, ever since I lost a close friend of mine in 2019. I knew her for several years, it was a painful experience of getting very close and then seeing things inexorably deteriorate over the last handful of years. The life situation my chronic long term depression had placed me in made me powerless to change anything or prevent our drifting apart.
In the time since she passed, I've made a few attempts at recovery but they haven't succeeded. These suffocating lockdowns going on all over the world have made it very difficult to meet new people and make friends. The thing I struggle the most with these days is the pronounced feeling of isolation and loneliness, which leads to bouts of sharp despair that bring me to the verge of tears.
It would be nice to make some new friends with shared interests, who are accepting and can empathize with the darker feelings of life I mentioned above. I am an emotional/empathic person and am good with supporting close/trusted friends in those areas.
As for my interests, I've watched a ton of anime over the years and still do, I probably qualify as a weeb. I used to game a lot, I haven't as much lately but in the past I played various titles like Stardew Valley, Splatoon, most of the Zeldas including botw, Terraria, and jrpgs. Some other things I'm into are programming, reading (mostly VNs in recent years) and music.
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21M USA I had depression before my chronic health issues but now my depression is basically only about my health. I won't be able to say too much for the first few months because I'm sensitive to noise from hearing damage, and that needs a few more months to heal before the noise of typing doesn't bother me. I always assumed I'd kill myself so I always listened to music at max volumee not caring that I was hurting my ears. I now have tinnitus, a permanent ringing in my ears, hyperacusis, sensitivity to noise, tendinitis, wrist/finger inflammation problems from overexercising and that's about it. Balding too but I've given up on the idea of my appearance mattering since I can't exercise anymore. I should only have good news to share as the months go by and my hyperacusis and tendinitis improve, and once a cure for tinnitus/hyperacusis comes out.
My original reasons for depression was loneliness which I was somewhat able to overcome so I might have advise on that. Again I won't say much for the first few months but I can't commit suicide for a few months so I have no choice but to wait and see how I recover. Getting better is inevitable for me it's just a question of if it's worth the wait.
My original reasons for depression was loneliness which I was somewhat able to overcome so I might have advise on that. Again I won't say much for the first few months but I can't commit suicide for a few months so I have no choice but to wait and see how I recover. Getting better is inevitable for me it's just a question of if it's worth the wait.
mochi_
Member
- Nov 30, 2020
- 8
34F in SoCal.
Fighting complex PTSD, depression, agoraphobia (anxiety), OCD.
I want friends to talk to, hang out with and also share recovery life experiences with, such as skydiving and scuba diving. I'm thinking of eventually getting a diving certificate. It'd be really nice to have someone who is also interested in diving (sky or the ocean, or even better, BOTH!).
Looking for a friend or even a GROUP of us so we can all just be there for each other. Group chat, meet, chill, eat, and be adventurous. Anyone outside of SoCal can also join us, we can do online movie nights, game together (Steam, PS), etc.
Open to all ages and gender. Let's just be kind to each other and age and distance are not an issue.
What do you think?
Oh, and I really wanna go to the Immersive Van Gogh exhibit in LA, maybe October. I know it's months away but I wanna go with someone, is possible. Would love to meet someone to get to know better till then and maybe we can go together (:
Fighting complex PTSD, depression, agoraphobia (anxiety), OCD.
I want friends to talk to, hang out with and also share recovery life experiences with, such as skydiving and scuba diving. I'm thinking of eventually getting a diving certificate. It'd be really nice to have someone who is also interested in diving (sky or the ocean, or even better, BOTH!).
Looking for a friend or even a GROUP of us so we can all just be there for each other. Group chat, meet, chill, eat, and be adventurous. Anyone outside of SoCal can also join us, we can do online movie nights, game together (Steam, PS), etc.
Open to all ages and gender. Let's just be kind to each other and age and distance are not an issue.
What do you think?
Oh, and I really wanna go to the Immersive Van Gogh exhibit in LA, maybe October. I know it's months away but I wanna go with someone, is possible. Would love to meet someone to get to know better till then and maybe we can go together (:
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listeningpost1379
enduring winter
- Apr 20, 2019
- 93
I'm a 28yo (29 in a few months) female expat in Australia. I am in a bad place mentally but really want to get better. In the past 1-2 years I have lost contact with all my friends so I'd love a friend to talk to. I'm looking for another woman, if you are in Aus we can even meet up for coffee or boba some time, if not no problem we can just chat. My energy level is abysmal but I love to listen to others and will try to talk.
jellybelly4
Member
- Apr 23, 2019
- 22
Hi there I would love to chat. I am a woman (24) but I live in the States.
Tav
Member
- Apr 20, 2018
- 39
25M from Eastern Europe suffering from anhedonia, apathy, autism, and despite not being able to really have a friendship I am very lonely and would want some kind of friend/connection. I have almost nothing to say,(no interests, no hobbies, no motivation) so it would be nice to talk to someone who can relate/understand and support each other .
jellybelly4
Member
- Apr 23, 2019
- 22
24 female the south, United States. I've tried to recover but realized I need to make connections in order to keep myself here. I have been having trouble finding a ctb partner and had been going to therapy. I want to give it one last go before I gogo. I never have any luck in finding good chatmates but this site has made me at least feel safe and at home.
unperson
nontitle
- May 8, 2021
- 120
So I'm looking for some conversation , but I'm not the most reliable person and don't want any pressure or expectations. So if you want to chat and are ok with the possibility that I will ghost the conversation, not on purpose, but because I'm very disorganized n shit, then send a pm. I'm basically a squirel, no one can predict the path lol... what else, uh 30 m, the us. ctb is kinda up in the air and years out if it happens, so i'll probably exist for a while whether i'm on the site or not. i like to talk about mental health stuff and know quite a bit, but not formally educated or anything like that.
S like suicide
Enlightened
- Apr 29, 2021
- 1,435
Hello everybody:) I signed up on this site more than two months ago with the clear intention of finding a ctb partner and dying.I have been suffering from severe depression for many years and it has evolved over time to take it all away.I have attempted suicide several times during this year and last month I found my ctb partner and we have put in action our plan but we are still alive because he in front of death has found hope and changed his mind and me...well i have not succeeded to kill myself even though I had the chance to do it twice with sure death(don't ask me why,because I still don't understand why I failed...why i didn't do it).Three weeks ago I got out of my deep despair and I'm thinking that I could give my life another chance just because i'm not even able to kill me.So it's not like I'm really in recovery because I'm very unstable and I often struggle with suicidal thoughts and I feel lost,sad and trapped.But i would like to give it a try...I have no one to rely on ... or rather I have a family that I hate and makes me suffer a lot (I don't talk to them but unfortunately I depend on them financially),i don't have a life basically,it's a lot of time that i'm out of society.thanks to ss every now and then I exchange a few words with some members or former members on some social network and this has helped me a lot and helps me but they are few messages every now and then.I would really like to be able to make connections with someone maybe become friends because I feel the loneliest person in the universe and really loneliness is cruelly torturing and killing me I would like someone to chat with ... talk about anything, maybe support us each other.I am a listening and tolerant person ... I don't think I'm very interesting though.I'm 27 / F from Italy...It would also be nice to meet and maybe hang out together but it seems difficult ... maybe there is some Italian who is looking for a friend?I have been unlucky with chatmates before...i hope now i could find someone that is looking for the same thing,someone to talk and support each other.So...please Pm me.we can chat here on SS on on discord if you like.Thank you
28M Portugal
Hi folks. These last two years have been particularly hard but I'm willing to go on and I think I would benefit from having a mutually supportive partner.
I'm currently stuck and trying to figure out where to turn to. My only victory these last two years has been losing a lot of weight but I'm not done. If anyone wants to give me some pointers on weight lifting that would be great. I enjoy music a lot and I watch too many comedy podcasts. I play guitar sometimes, but to be honest I have stopped feeling joy from it.
I don't know what more to say, just that It would be nice to get at least one response. Thanks!
Hi folks. These last two years have been particularly hard but I'm willing to go on and I think I would benefit from having a mutually supportive partner.
I'm currently stuck and trying to figure out where to turn to. My only victory these last two years has been losing a lot of weight but I'm not done. If anyone wants to give me some pointers on weight lifting that would be great. I enjoy music a lot and I watch too many comedy podcasts. I play guitar sometimes, but to be honest I have stopped feeling joy from it.
I don't know what more to say, just that It would be nice to get at least one response. Thanks!
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32 year-old male, in Florida, USA ....
I used to waiver in-and-out of suicidality on a daily basis. Now, it only comes every so often, like, with a few months in between.
I'd like to talk with someone about these things who has also gone through suicidal ideations or attempts like I have in the past. I'm still trying to recovery, it's a never ending thing.
I used to waiver in-and-out of suicidality on a daily basis. Now, it only comes every so often, like, with a few months in between.
I'd like to talk with someone about these things who has also gone through suicidal ideations or attempts like I have in the past. I'm still trying to recovery, it's a never ending thing.
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