28 male. Been trying to recover but will not be able to (from brain/nervous system injury). Posting here in anycase since I'd like to maybe talk about my situation and what happened/ was done to me. Or talk about anything really. Not from America.
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30 male, Curitiba/PR, Brasil. Eu acho que não posso mensagem privada(ainda). Eu sou um sujeito muito apático e desiludido com a vida de modo geral, mas adoraria me contatar com qualquer um. Eu adoraria ajudar alguém, talvez isso me ajudasse, ou pelo menos só conversar, eu adoro conversar, eu acho que pessoas são a única coisa que importa nesse mundo.
Regrets
★★★★★
- Aug 7, 2022
- 31
24, male, Brazil, trying to recover from depression.
I can speak portuguese and english.
Looking for anyone to talk to, vent out or anything that could help. I'm down to making friends.
I'm a good listener so if you want to vent out about anything just talk to me.
I can speak portuguese and english.
Looking for anyone to talk to, vent out or anything that could help. I'm down to making friends.
I'm a good listener so if you want to vent out about anything just talk to me.
Teddybear
Specialist
- Nov 20, 2021
- 335
Looking for a woman roughly 30-60. No meeting required, just someone to talk to about depression with the aim of finding reasons to live.
I say "woman" because in my experience, they usually are more sensitive in these parts. But I have seen differently.
I say "woman" because in my experience, they usually are more sensitive in these parts. But I have seen differently.
Poor Stargazer
See You @ The Singularity
- Mar 31, 2022
- 85
Want a friend. Southern California. Lets go on an adventure. I need that. If a bear eats us, well then thats cool too.
myrtaryniel
Member
- Mar 28, 2019
- 74
22F Spain, looking for company in this journey. I'm down to talk to anyone regardless of age or gender. PM me
worst.therapist
Member
- Aug 25, 2022
- 24
27M Brasil/RS
Alguém que queira conversar ou assistir filmes/series/animes pelo discord
Caso morar próximo, da pra sair junto também.
Alguém que queira conversar ou assistir filmes/series/animes pelo discord
Caso morar próximo, da pra sair junto também.
Blondie
Member
- Aug 12, 2022
- 79
34 f UK would love to chat to others I am really lonely
Suicidebydeath
No chances to be happy - dead inside
- Nov 25, 2021
- 3,559
Looking for someone to help support me through various surgeries (assuming I don't just ctb), UK, England.
Rapière
On the brink
- Jul 7, 2022
- 249
22/M
Coming to SS has been my remedy against loneliness for a whule but the posts have become so immature and shallow that I simply cannot bear it any longer. Before seeking out an alternative, I thought I'd ask here if there's anyone who's also sick of this highschool bullshit and wants to be my virtual pen-pal until one of us commits suicide or we grow tired of each other.
Coming to SS has been my remedy against loneliness for a whule but the posts have become so immature and shallow that I simply cannot bear it any longer. Before seeking out an alternative, I thought I'd ask here if there's anyone who's also sick of this highschool bullshit and wants to be my virtual pen-pal until one of us commits suicide or we grow tired of each other.
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Things are getting busy for me right now with school starting up again, but you can send me a message any time.
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Persephone
- Mar 28, 2021
- 657
I'm Persie. I'm a 30 year old woman and this is my last ditch attempt to live.
I almost died during my mother's pregnancy due to her unsuccessful attempts to abort me. My subsequent survival of an emergency, premature birth was considered a "miracle." I was born on the brink of death, with my intestines growing outside of my body and with brain damage that would later lead to a diagnosis of an incurable disability.
The few photos I have seen of myself post-birth show a tiny, fragile little being, mottled in shades of red and blue and barely conscious. I could fit neatly, like a wounded bird, in someone's hand.
I am one of those people that, based on probabilities, should have died. Most newborn babies in my position die, if they are ever born at all. Instead, with these many odds stacked against me, I lived. I not only regularly wished I hadn't been born, a cruel twist is that I wasn't meant to be here. I have felt that sense of not belonging - like a puzzle piece that doesn't fit - for my entire life. I was not only unwanted, but so very close to death when I was cut from my mother's womb and rescued.
Since that day, I experienced abuse and terror that words do no justice to articulate. I was physically abused, sexually abused, tortured, forced to witness extreme violence, forced to witness animal cruelty, exposed to death and so much more.
I am sharing this because it is important to understand that suicidality has been a prominent part of my life for a very, very long time. The thoughts began at the age of 4. The intent began at age 9. I have tried to take my life through several different stages, at different ages. In an existence seemingly consisting of relentless suffering with no-one to turn to, suicide was like a friend with their hand on my shoulder, assuring me that they can make all of this agony, all of this abuse, all of these bleak series of events simply vanish.
My life never felt like a "miracle." I never felt "saved." I felt broken and cursed and damaged.
This is my final attempt to find some semblance of healing. I will give my very best effort, but cannot promise to succeed, only to try my hardest.
I do not expect to "fully" recover, or to be free from my struggles. Truthfully, "recovery" doesn't feel like the right word for me. I will always have to carry the weight of my traumas on my shoulders. I will always be disabled. I will always be chronically ill. These cannot be cured - I cannot "recover" from these in the same way I recovered from a broken arm as a little girl. However, I would like to learn to manage them, to carry them without being completely crippled by them. I would like to be a better person because of my situation, not in spite of it.
The medication I am currently taking for my chronic illnesses and the progress I have made in my symptoms has instilled some hope that life with these conditions is perhaps possible for me. Not easy, but possible.
If you have read my post to this point, thank you so much for persevering and for giving your time to listen to a part of my story.
I am seeking to connect with others who are attempting to improve their lives, particularly those who have also experienced abuse and trauma. This is not a requirement, but I feel those who have endured these things understand one another more deeply, in ways that can never truly be matched by those who haven't experienced repeated abuse and trauma themselves. I am open to listening to your story if you would like to share what you have been through in life, but there is no expectation or pressure to do so.
While light-hearted chatting would be welcome, I am also interested in being able to be transparent about our feelings, our progress, our setbacks and our struggles. I am not seeking constant, forced positivity, motivational quotes, platitudes or anti-choice rhetoric. I recognise these may be useful to some, but they are not for me. I want both parties to be able to freely discuss death, suicide and to give ourselves - and each other - permission to fuck up and get lost while navigating this long, complicated journey towards making this life worth living. Let's get lost and - hopefully - find our way together.
All ages, genders, backgrounds and walks of life are very welcome to reach out. I'd much prefer to keep in contact on a different platform if possible (not immediately, but after we have gotten to know each other a little), such as Discord, Telegram or Protonmail, but I'm prepared to talk here too if that's more comfortable for you. My replies will likely be more delayed here because I try to use SS somewhat sparingly.
We can respond to one another at our own pace and create a safe channel of communication where we can chat anytime, support one another, and reply in our more able moments. I will listen and be here to provide nonjudgmental support, no matter what happens or what decision you reach in future.
Feel free to contact me anytime, and we can see if our aspirations, interests and views are aligned (and even if they are not, perhaps we can learn something new from each other).
I wish all of you the very best in your endeavour to improve your lives and I truly hope you all find the companionship and support you deserve. Sending lots of love
I almost died during my mother's pregnancy due to her unsuccessful attempts to abort me. My subsequent survival of an emergency, premature birth was considered a "miracle." I was born on the brink of death, with my intestines growing outside of my body and with brain damage that would later lead to a diagnosis of an incurable disability.
The few photos I have seen of myself post-birth show a tiny, fragile little being, mottled in shades of red and blue and barely conscious. I could fit neatly, like a wounded bird, in someone's hand.
I am one of those people that, based on probabilities, should have died. Most newborn babies in my position die, if they are ever born at all. Instead, with these many odds stacked against me, I lived. I not only regularly wished I hadn't been born, a cruel twist is that I wasn't meant to be here. I have felt that sense of not belonging - like a puzzle piece that doesn't fit - for my entire life. I was not only unwanted, but so very close to death when I was cut from my mother's womb and rescued.
Since that day, I experienced abuse and terror that words do no justice to articulate. I was physically abused, sexually abused, tortured, forced to witness extreme violence, forced to witness animal cruelty, exposed to death and so much more.
I am sharing this because it is important to understand that suicidality has been a prominent part of my life for a very, very long time. The thoughts began at the age of 4. The intent began at age 9. I have tried to take my life through several different stages, at different ages. In an existence seemingly consisting of relentless suffering with no-one to turn to, suicide was like a friend with their hand on my shoulder, assuring me that they can make all of this agony, all of this abuse, all of these bleak series of events simply vanish.
My life never felt like a "miracle." I never felt "saved." I felt broken and cursed and damaged.
This is my final attempt to find some semblance of healing. I will give my very best effort, but cannot promise to succeed, only to try my hardest.
I do not expect to "fully" recover, or to be free from my struggles. Truthfully, "recovery" doesn't feel like the right word for me. I will always have to carry the weight of my traumas on my shoulders. I will always be disabled. I will always be chronically ill. These cannot be cured - I cannot "recover" from these in the same way I recovered from a broken arm as a little girl. However, I would like to learn to manage them, to carry them without being completely crippled by them. I would like to be a better person because of my situation, not in spite of it.
The medication I am currently taking for my chronic illnesses and the progress I have made in my symptoms has instilled some hope that life with these conditions is perhaps possible for me. Not easy, but possible.
If you have read my post to this point, thank you so much for persevering and for giving your time to listen to a part of my story.
I am seeking to connect with others who are attempting to improve their lives, particularly those who have also experienced abuse and trauma. This is not a requirement, but I feel those who have endured these things understand one another more deeply, in ways that can never truly be matched by those who haven't experienced repeated abuse and trauma themselves. I am open to listening to your story if you would like to share what you have been through in life, but there is no expectation or pressure to do so.
While light-hearted chatting would be welcome, I am also interested in being able to be transparent about our feelings, our progress, our setbacks and our struggles. I am not seeking constant, forced positivity, motivational quotes, platitudes or anti-choice rhetoric. I recognise these may be useful to some, but they are not for me. I want both parties to be able to freely discuss death, suicide and to give ourselves - and each other - permission to fuck up and get lost while navigating this long, complicated journey towards making this life worth living. Let's get lost and - hopefully - find our way together.
All ages, genders, backgrounds and walks of life are very welcome to reach out. I'd much prefer to keep in contact on a different platform if possible (not immediately, but after we have gotten to know each other a little), such as Discord, Telegram or Protonmail, but I'm prepared to talk here too if that's more comfortable for you. My replies will likely be more delayed here because I try to use SS somewhat sparingly.
We can respond to one another at our own pace and create a safe channel of communication where we can chat anytime, support one another, and reply in our more able moments. I will listen and be here to provide nonjudgmental support, no matter what happens or what decision you reach in future.
Feel free to contact me anytime, and we can see if our aspirations, interests and views are aligned (and even if they are not, perhaps we can learn something new from each other).
I wish all of you the very best in your endeavour to improve your lives and I truly hope you all find the companionship and support you deserve. Sending lots of love
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rainbowbright
Member
- Oct 1, 2022
- 89
34 f UK would really like to connect with others in recovery
Suicidebydeath
No chances to be happy - dead inside
- Nov 25, 2021
- 3,559
I'm looking for someone to give me motivational support with physical/cosmetic surgeries to improve quality of life.
In return I'll give friendship and any help you need to help with your situation.
Main requirement is kindness, and the energy or motivation to give support.
Another requirement is to not be imminently suicidal, hence reasons to post in the recovery section are doubled over.
I won't do anything until I find a home, but after that it should be my next plan.
UK, England.
In return I'll give friendship and any help you need to help with your situation.
Main requirement is kindness, and the energy or motivation to give support.
Another requirement is to not be imminently suicidal, hence reasons to post in the recovery section are doubled over.
I won't do anything until I find a home, but after that it should be my next plan.
UK, England.
Please I need a friend . I will be a friend back. I know with genuine dupport I can make it but I need help,
necrolatry
Spare me a tomorrow
- Oct 15, 2022
- 17
I have lost all close connections and I'm looking for someone to openly talk to and for someone who can provide general support. I have no preference in gender whatsoever, but they should be around my age (20). I am male and from Germany should it be of any matter.
In return I offer being fully open about anything and will give back as much support as I can. I have no limits, you can talk to me about anything you like and I will always give you my honest opinion on things. You can always reach me in emergency situations as I feel it is important to have somebody reachable at all times.
Unfortunately, I get easily attached to people in sometimes hurtful ways. For instance, by extreme jealousy. I will always make this clear when it happens and will try to take precautions to contain myself, but I won't always succeed. If any of this is a concern to you then please don't bother with me as it will make it really difficult for both of us.
If you want more information about me, I've introduced myself before in https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/introduce-yourself.3952/post-1752725
In return I offer being fully open about anything and will give back as much support as I can. I have no limits, you can talk to me about anything you like and I will always give you my honest opinion on things. You can always reach me in emergency situations as I feel it is important to have somebody reachable at all times.
Unfortunately, I get easily attached to people in sometimes hurtful ways. For instance, by extreme jealousy. I will always make this clear when it happens and will try to take precautions to contain myself, but I won't always succeed. If any of this is a concern to you then please don't bother with me as it will make it really difficult for both of us.
If you want more information about me, I've introduced myself before in https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/introduce-yourself.3952/post-1752725
I am 27 year old male. Looking for a girl. I am patient, supportive and chill. I am also a hobbyist game programmer that loves music
and loves to game so if you are cool with that then shoot me a PM! I don't really mind where you are from.
and loves to game so if you are cool with that then shoot me a PM! I don't really mind where you are from.
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ConstantBattle
Member
- Dec 1, 2021
- 12
Hi, erm I thought I'd give this a try.
I am a 35 year old male from Slovenia, willing to try and support someone through chat, male or female, does not matter. I feel like my purpose in life is to help others in any way I can, kinda found this out by accident once I got back into society. GMT +1 if you want to be in a close or similar timezone so we are up at the same time.
If theres any Slovenians here, don't hesitate to pm me, always willing to talk to fellow countrymen and anyone else is also welcome, I'm not here to be picky, I'm here to try and help if I can.
Since im still a novice at this I may sometimes stumble with my responses, don't feel discouraged by this, I am still learning how to best help and support others.
I like to be honest, sincere and direct, willing to talk about anything and everything, you can be honest and direct with me as well, i won't get hurt and i'll understand if something about me bothers you, in fact, by telling me I can improve, no pressure from my side, I don't like to be invasive so I tend to wait for a reply before I write more myself.
So yeah, if you need someone to talk to, feel free to pm me.
I am a 35 year old male from Slovenia, willing to try and support someone through chat, male or female, does not matter. I feel like my purpose in life is to help others in any way I can, kinda found this out by accident once I got back into society. GMT +1 if you want to be in a close or similar timezone so we are up at the same time.
If theres any Slovenians here, don't hesitate to pm me, always willing to talk to fellow countrymen and anyone else is also welcome, I'm not here to be picky, I'm here to try and help if I can.
Since im still a novice at this I may sometimes stumble with my responses, don't feel discouraged by this, I am still learning how to best help and support others.
I like to be honest, sincere and direct, willing to talk about anything and everything, you can be honest and direct with me as well, i won't get hurt and i'll understand if something about me bothers you, in fact, by telling me I can improve, no pressure from my side, I don't like to be invasive so I tend to wait for a reply before I write more myself.
So yeah, if you need someone to talk to, feel free to pm me.
Somebody
The Answer is 42
- Feb 16, 2021
- 25
25M- USA
I am trying to recover don't know exactly what I need. I have a job and am financially stable. My life still feels pointless even when things are looking up.
Would love to chat and make new friends. I am still quite isolated and feeling alone. I can be supportive and will always text you back. If someone wants to take this journey with me, please message me.
P.S. My discord is Somebody#0248 if u want to add me there directly
I am trying to recover don't know exactly what I need. I have a job and am financially stable. My life still feels pointless even when things are looking up.
Would love to chat and make new friends. I am still quite isolated and feeling alone. I can be supportive and will always text you back. If someone wants to take this journey with me, please message me.
P.S. My discord is Somebody#0248 if u want to add me there directly
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deathbylife
going to die soon no one cares
- Jun 21, 2022
- 118
Hi, 53 yr old F from 
. Still trying to learn to trust other people. Love animals, follow politics in general, true crime and horror movie junkie. Trying to train my cat to take walks in a harness and leash. I am dealing with several mental health diagnoses. I have no idea how much help I can be to someone else, because I am often exhausted, but I would like to connect with some people or maybe a group of people in general life recovery/just trying to get by day by day.
. Still trying to learn to trust other people. Love animals, follow politics in general, true crime and horror movie junkie. Trying to train my cat to take walks in a harness and leash. I am dealing with several mental health diagnoses. I have no idea how much help I can be to someone else, because I am often exhausted, but I would like to connect with some people or maybe a group of people in general life recovery/just trying to get by day by day.
WeLiveWeDie
Member
- Jul 3, 2022
- 7
(25/F/Florida)
I'm looking for encouraging words or insights, maybe somebody to work out my head with, if it's not too much to ask.
My whole life has been hectic, one thing after another ever since I was a kid and this life has really just been knocking me down hard, the most recent is my husband getting murdered and the court system dragging me through trial as a witness, but the boys might get out of jail anyways .I want to stand up for my husband but it really takes a toll on my mental health, reliving it and seeing these people that murdered him but I'm subpoenaed to go by the courts and if I don't I'm held in contempt but I'm so tired .
My life had always been hectic and I just seemed to get by just enough but my husband really made me feel safe and secure for once, like a breath of fresh air and for the first time I was just genuinely happy but a senseless act took everything away from me and at first I lost it.
I was angry I started drinking and I'd get drunk and try to fight my husband's murders family and friends. I attempted suicide multiple times, I've quit drinking now but nothing makes the pain go away. I loved this man with all my heart and everything reminds me of him, I have friends and some family and I try to go out and be happy and keep myself busy at work, keep my mind busy but nothing can shake this hollow feeling in my soul, that it's all for nothing. Whats the point of life. It seems like a sick joke .
My boyfriend before this died and I've since lost 5 friends, 4 from car accidents 1 from covid and I'm having a hard time wanting to connect with my friends and family because everybody is just dying and I can't seem to have this conversation with anybody that cares about me because I know they're happy and I don't want to bring them down and be a burden but even when I hint that I'm not okay or that I miss my husband they hint that I need to move on with my life and not hold on to the past but it's hard to let go of somebody i planned out my whole life with, we were trying to have baby's and buy a house, and all my friends are in relationships, having baby's and buying houses , I haven't been to my family events and they're getting upset on why I can't just come and be happy But its hard for me when im constantly reminded of everything i dont have . So with everybody I just make small talk, be nice and slip away. I'll be stuck in bed for days on end crying or just numb getting bitched out for not coming out and being a part of everybody's life, they think I'm dramatic but I'm just trying to find my will . its been 3 years and its been a long hual, still going through court . The happiest I am these days are day dreaming on what my life with my loved ones could have been if we couldve all stayed together and lived out our lives but it's just me now . Wish I could join them wherever they are . If there's a way to recover mentally I'm just feeling lost.
The worst part is all that is just the tip of the iceberg of problems I want to overcome but right now I've just survived enough, just functioning so I can come back to my bed every night and die a little more inside .
If you have any suggestions or things that you think could help or have helped you please shoot me a message, I'm too poor for therapy.
I'm looking for encouraging words or insights, maybe somebody to work out my head with, if it's not too much to ask.
My whole life has been hectic, one thing after another ever since I was a kid and this life has really just been knocking me down hard, the most recent is my husband getting murdered and the court system dragging me through trial as a witness, but the boys might get out of jail anyways .I want to stand up for my husband but it really takes a toll on my mental health, reliving it and seeing these people that murdered him but I'm subpoenaed to go by the courts and if I don't I'm held in contempt but I'm so tired .
My life had always been hectic and I just seemed to get by just enough but my husband really made me feel safe and secure for once, like a breath of fresh air and for the first time I was just genuinely happy but a senseless act took everything away from me and at first I lost it.
I was angry I started drinking and I'd get drunk and try to fight my husband's murders family and friends. I attempted suicide multiple times, I've quit drinking now but nothing makes the pain go away. I loved this man with all my heart and everything reminds me of him, I have friends and some family and I try to go out and be happy and keep myself busy at work, keep my mind busy but nothing can shake this hollow feeling in my soul, that it's all for nothing. Whats the point of life. It seems like a sick joke .
My boyfriend before this died and I've since lost 5 friends, 4 from car accidents 1 from covid and I'm having a hard time wanting to connect with my friends and family because everybody is just dying and I can't seem to have this conversation with anybody that cares about me because I know they're happy and I don't want to bring them down and be a burden but even when I hint that I'm not okay or that I miss my husband they hint that I need to move on with my life and not hold on to the past but it's hard to let go of somebody i planned out my whole life with, we were trying to have baby's and buy a house, and all my friends are in relationships, having baby's and buying houses , I haven't been to my family events and they're getting upset on why I can't just come and be happy But its hard for me when im constantly reminded of everything i dont have . So with everybody I just make small talk, be nice and slip away. I'll be stuck in bed for days on end crying or just numb getting bitched out for not coming out and being a part of everybody's life, they think I'm dramatic but I'm just trying to find my will . its been 3 years and its been a long hual, still going through court . The happiest I am these days are day dreaming on what my life with my loved ones could have been if we couldve all stayed together and lived out our lives but it's just me now . Wish I could join them wherever they are . If there's a way to recover mentally I'm just feeling lost.
The worst part is all that is just the tip of the iceberg of problems I want to overcome but right now I've just survived enough, just functioning so I can come back to my bed every night and die a little more inside .
If you have any suggestions or things that you think could help or have helped you please shoot me a message, I'm too poor for therapy.
Let me know if interested in chatting . I am femaleHi, 53 yr old F from
Your story just similar to mine . So Pm me . I haven't sussed it out but like you would appreciate support
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Ok, here goes.
I'm here for those of you who want support, someone to talk to, an unbiased opinion or just to vent. I've got some experience in managing very complex, stressful, safety critical, often very dangerous situations. I also have experience in managing people through all of the above. I have basic coaching skills and would try to use every skill I've got to help you if I can. I'm not a councillor or therapist, I won't pretend to be.
I'll try to get the best from you and allow you to give it back to yourself. I'm not looking for romance hence gender, age, nationality and beliefs don't matter to me.
In return, honestly I've no idea what I want. Maybe to try to help someone, even if only one person. Maybe I'm trying to be a better person, I don't know. I am dead set that I will ctb but I will not burden you with my thoughts and feelings in that matter.
If you're interested, have questions or think I'm an idiot and want to voice it please pm or private chat me.
There really are some wonderful people on this site.
I'm here for those of you who want support, someone to talk to, an unbiased opinion or just to vent. I've got some experience in managing very complex, stressful, safety critical, often very dangerous situations. I also have experience in managing people through all of the above. I have basic coaching skills and would try to use every skill I've got to help you if I can. I'm not a councillor or therapist, I won't pretend to be.
I'll try to get the best from you and allow you to give it back to yourself. I'm not looking for romance hence gender, age, nationality and beliefs don't matter to me.
In return, honestly I've no idea what I want. Maybe to try to help someone, even if only one person. Maybe I'm trying to be a better person, I don't know. I am dead set that I will ctb but I will not burden you with my thoughts and feelings in that matter.
If you're interested, have questions or think I'm an idiot and want to voice it please pm or private chat me.
There really are some wonderful people on this site.
Hello, you are welcome to write to me if you want. I am looking for an online friend (online friends).
I want to but I don't . I am tired . I feel easier to go I want to go
ColorlessTrees
Stuck
- Jan 4, 2022
- 261
I'm so lonely I'll give it another go. 19F, Southern US, gonna cry, prefer someone around my age and "local", but that doesn't matter if the context of this message seems appealing to you. Looking for a genuine close friendship, not a time waster, so I can't be too limiting.
I'm long winded, and I'm going to be long winded in this ad because I want to rule out incompatibilities. Lonely as hell, been hurt a lot, always vulnerable because I'm straightforward and wear my heart on my sleeve. It's dumb but I can't help it, so if you want a verbose, touchy feely introspective type friend, I'm for you. I'm always joking and my sense of humor can be abrasive, off kilter, or absurd, but I also enjoy serious topics and deep discussions. I need both, because I hate small talk and superficial friendship based on one common interest. Come to me with a topic, any topic at all, and we'll discuss. Come to me if you don't want to censor yourself.
I'm wounded and unstable and isolated and rambly with a rich, traumatic history you will most certainly hear about, but I try to keep a level head, don't hold grudges, and I'll do a lot to save a friendship and go above and beyond to keep one comfortable, feeling valued, accepted, and secure. I'm clingy, prefer someone who has lots of free time and energy to talk, prefer someone on a similar page of "attempting recovery, but everything is actually shit and I don't know what exactly will happen".
When I'm not numb to everything, my favorite music genres are postpunk/dreampop/general 80s alt, I love dumb monster romance novels, a couple of girly game series, thinking about myself and the world, and writing indulgent stuff that's very unconventional. I want to do a lot more things but I've either quit or not picked them up. I'm very unconventional, very damaged, but I excel at listening and "helping" with heavy topics. I do unconventional things, and it has ruined at least one friendship.
Charming, I know. To describe myself succinctly, my true self, it'd be open, honest, overbearing, chaotic, affectionate, and somewhat sane. Just a little bit. Never a dull moment unless we allow it to be. Prefer to be PMed because sometimes I miss the chat notifications. And we can move to discord if we hit it off. No hard feelings if we talk and it doesn't click.
tldr; I don't know where else to make friends and I'm an isolated loser so I'm back at my bullshit here. I'm a freak and I'm looking for another freak to pass the time with until life decides to finish me off. I need someone who thrives on talking and sharing, even rambling. Any sad poor soul who's potentially interested don't expect much, but I don't bite. Unless you want me to, of course. (I'm looking for someone who would find that even a bit amusing.)
Apologies for the wall of text. Am too dumb to figure out how to "hide" it.
I'm long winded, and I'm going to be long winded in this ad because I want to rule out incompatibilities. Lonely as hell, been hurt a lot, always vulnerable because I'm straightforward and wear my heart on my sleeve. It's dumb but I can't help it, so if you want a verbose, touchy feely introspective type friend, I'm for you. I'm always joking and my sense of humor can be abrasive, off kilter, or absurd, but I also enjoy serious topics and deep discussions. I need both, because I hate small talk and superficial friendship based on one common interest. Come to me with a topic, any topic at all, and we'll discuss. Come to me if you don't want to censor yourself.
I'm wounded and unstable and isolated and rambly with a rich, traumatic history you will most certainly hear about, but I try to keep a level head, don't hold grudges, and I'll do a lot to save a friendship and go above and beyond to keep one comfortable, feeling valued, accepted, and secure. I'm clingy, prefer someone who has lots of free time and energy to talk, prefer someone on a similar page of "attempting recovery, but everything is actually shit and I don't know what exactly will happen".
When I'm not numb to everything, my favorite music genres are postpunk/dreampop/general 80s alt, I love dumb monster romance novels, a couple of girly game series, thinking about myself and the world, and writing indulgent stuff that's very unconventional. I want to do a lot more things but I've either quit or not picked them up. I'm very unconventional, very damaged, but I excel at listening and "helping" with heavy topics. I do unconventional things, and it has ruined at least one friendship.
Charming, I know. To describe myself succinctly, my true self, it'd be open, honest, overbearing, chaotic, affectionate, and somewhat sane. Just a little bit. Never a dull moment unless we allow it to be. Prefer to be PMed because sometimes I miss the chat notifications. And we can move to discord if we hit it off. No hard feelings if we talk and it doesn't click.
tldr; I don't know where else to make friends and I'm an isolated loser so I'm back at my bullshit here. I'm a freak and I'm looking for another freak to pass the time with until life decides to finish me off. I need someone who thrives on talking and sharing, even rambling. Any sad poor soul who's potentially interested don't expect much, but I don't bite. Unless you want me to, of course. (I'm looking for someone who would find that even a bit amusing.)
Apologies for the wall of text. Am too dumb to figure out how to "hide" it.
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Hi, I'm looking for someone I can talk to, I'm giving recovery a try. I would like some help and I'm willing to give it too.
My native language is not english, please forgive me if I'm late in responding.
My native language is not english, please forgive me if I'm late in responding.
letmebreathe
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- Nov 5, 2022
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Hello there, I know this is a long shot but I'm looking for a recovery partner from India.
I am 26/M, I have suffered from MDD and GAD since adolescence, I have been in treatment for them on and off over the years. I'm currently not in treatment but going to see a new therapist very soon. I have my exit planned out and ready to go but I am giving recovery one last shot.
The reason I am looking for a person residing in India is so that we can someday meet face to face. I am a shut in, have been for years and I have great trouble stepping out of the house. So it goes without saying that I have very poor social skills and can't start a conversation to save my life. Unfortunately talking to people is the only thing that gives me true joy in life, and while I have a few friends online, I'd really like to have a friend in real life.
I am open to talking to anyone, no matter your age, gender, orientation, race etc. The meeting irl part is completely optional as well, if you're not into it, which is understandable. So if you want to chat with a fellow desi then shoot me a DM :)
I am 26/M, I have suffered from MDD and GAD since adolescence, I have been in treatment for them on and off over the years. I'm currently not in treatment but going to see a new therapist very soon. I have my exit planned out and ready to go but I am giving recovery one last shot.
The reason I am looking for a person residing in India is so that we can someday meet face to face. I am a shut in, have been for years and I have great trouble stepping out of the house. So it goes without saying that I have very poor social skills and can't start a conversation to save my life. Unfortunately talking to people is the only thing that gives me true joy in life, and while I have a few friends online, I'd really like to have a friend in real life.
I am open to talking to anyone, no matter your age, gender, orientation, race etc. The meeting irl part is completely optional as well, if you're not into it, which is understandable. So if you want to chat with a fellow desi then shoot me a DM :)
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