Rant

[X.just.max.x]

After failing at killing myself I thought maybe there was a reason for me to stay around. It's almost been a year and since then people I love and care about have died and my cousin killed himself. I feel so fucking lost and so alone. I just want to kill myself again. Why didn't my attempt work? I'm stuck all by myself and I can't do it anymore

 

[BPD_LE]

I'm sorry you're in this situation. You've come to the right place. We listen without judgement and support whatever choices you make ❤

 

[Ark]

What brought you to the point of attempting the first time? If you don't want to talk about it that's ok of course. I am sorry for what you are going through. There are many people here willing and wanting to help, and more than happy to just listen.

 

[randomz]

Well, there must be a reason for you to stay around and you will find it someday I am sure. I am sorry for your losses.

 

[X.just.max.x]

What brought you to the point of attempting the first time? If you don't want to talk about it that's ok of course. I am sorry for what you are going through. There are many people here willing and wanting to help, and more than happy to just listen.

I genuinely couldn't take it anymore. It felt like I had no reason to live and I feel like I'm slowly getting back to that point again. It's horrible because after I thought I'd never do it again but I've been wanting to for a few months now

 

[Ark]

What couldn't you take anymore? And did those things get better for a while?

 

[Moonicide]

I'm so sorry for your loss, love. No matter the length of time you've been without them, it's still loss. It's still pain.
My heart goes out to you... Whatever you choose in the end, I hope it brings you peace.

Sending you lots of love and support.

 

[randomz]

I genuinely couldn't take it anymore. It felt like I had no reason to live and I feel like I'm slowly getting back to that point again. It's horrible because after I thought I'd never do it again but I've been wanting to for a few months now

Well then you saw that there are times at which you are happy and don't want to CTB. Just hold on to the thought that these times will come back again no matter the hardships you are going trhough right now.

 

[X.just.max.x]

What couldn't you take anymore? And did those things get better for a while?

There's just always too much going on. I'm constantly beat down by everyone around me and myself and I feel like I don't get a break. I just wish everything would stop and I could be at peace and dead. They did get better for a while but not for long. About a month later I was already hurting myself again and wanting to be dead

 

[randomz]

There's just always too much going on. I'm constantly beat down by everyone around me and myself and I feel like I don't get a break. I just wish everything would stop and I could be at peace and dead. They did get better for a while but not for long. About a month later I was already hurting myself again and wanting to be dead

well a month is not that short period of a break. It just shows you that nothing is permanent and that the hard times will pass again.