Random thoughts

[KleinerWolf]

I sometimes look at other people and I look at myself like damn my life has been a shitshow.
Wtf happened? Ew!

 

[_Kaira_]

Found SN on amazon today at like 99.6% purity. Which got me thinking, damn, that's easier than I thought to obtain.
Only 20$ to boot! Then I realized I'm a fucking NEET with no money lol. God help me.

Also I just want someone to love me who can deal with my shit, and not leave me the moment they realize I'm not worth their time.
it would brighten my dark world so much.

 

[Homecoming]

I think it's time to set my CTB deadline!
I cannot suffer like this anymore

 

[http-410]

All of this is so damn wrong.

Eating, watching videos, reading goodbye threads / watching people die at the same time.

What the hell is wrong with me.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

I can't believe just how many people I saw outside today clearly ignoring social distancing. Why do people just not care anymore? We're supposed to be in California, damnit.

Mainly I'm just mad I couldn't find parking.

 

[ForensicallyAware]

I dream of recovering the inner peace I had as a child

I must be out of my f----g mind

 

[http-410]

It's strange seeing his name grey and crossed out.

 

[Georgii]

I wish I could've said something.

 

[Morphinekiss]

Well that was an unexpected return to the hospital. As always, I can't say I recommend being vented.

 

[Kassender]

That feeling when even your weed dealer stands you up

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Even meeting with my friends after it's been so long didn't really make me that much happier...

 

[Rue89]

Waking up with anxiety sucks. Also I'm hungry but feel like I can't eat because the anxiety is making my stomach feel sick.

 

[Rue89]

I wish my mom wasn't home right now. I haven't eaten all night; I'm ready, I really want to drink my SN.

 

[http-410]

My pounding heart is becoming annoying. Why can't it just stop?

I wonder how many pills I should save.

 

[ocd is bad]

This isn't suicide related but does anyone feel strange using the hug react sometimes? I use it a lot but it feels kind of wrong reacting to a goodbye post or something else serious with an emoji with such a big smile.

 

[KleinerWolf]

The fools and the devils they rejoice in a dance,
The clues that were never made clear,

The suffering of a decade,
what's worthy and what's not,

The fantasy that's ever so breathtaking...
The deteriorated edges and its early depreciation,
Shattered hearts and its dispossession.

Peasant's love for fine art,
Daring yet tragic.

 

[Myforevercharlie]

Is there a sticker on my forehead with " you can act like a pissed of little man at me"?

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Whoever invented the respondus browser deserves to be shot. Why should I have to make an effort for my online tests? I don't really care that my other classmates would be able to use online answers too. College is already a joke and I wasn't going to retain any of this information whether or not I'm technically cheating anyway. Also the whole thing is too invasive since it has to use a webcam.

 

[Worthless_nobody]

I'm ready to die. Life fucked me over for the last time I'm done playing this rigged game. Now just a matter of when I can do it.

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

Whoever invented the respondus browser deserves to be shot. Why should I have to make an effort for my online tests? I don't really care that my other classmates would be able to use online answers too. College is already a joke and I wasn't going to retain any of this information whether or not I'm technically cheating anyway. Also the whole thing is too invasive since it has to use a webcam.

I failed this test as expected though it's my own fault for not caring enough.

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

i fucking hate this stupid existence. i hope the days go by faster. december 31 is the day i leave this sinful body and become the best version of myself: one that doesn't exist.

and if i'm reincarnated? i'll continue to kill myself. i will kill myself until the end of time. i never asked for this prison of flesh; i never wanted it. how dare you force me to stay inside it?

 

[http-410]

Looks like my insomnia is back at full force.

 

[GrumpyFrog]

"Warning - due to a problematic update the service is currently non-functional. In an attempt to renew any of the old connections <the software name> gets stuck in a loop of trying to connect, receiving no response and trying to reconnect again, which uses a lot of resources and might crash your system, so please beware! For the time being, new connections can't be established either, as <the software name> detects an incompatibility and immediately disconnects. We're doing our best to fix this ASAP, please refrain from using <the software name> until further notice".

This message from the dev team I received yesterday can be used as a perfect description of my social life.

Trying to connect...

 

[VIBRITANNIA]

why am i such a horrible fucking person. why did my empathy and conscious come so late? i want to die. i can't live with this guilt. i should take responsibility, but i can't. it hurts. i'm a weak person. the only thing i'm strong enough to do is kill myself. it hurts. december has to come quicker.

 

[Kassender]

Come on, what are you waiting for ??

 

[nerve]

I want to drink until I lose consciousness. I can't be awake in this dumpster fire flesh cage right now. I can't handle it. I can't get away from it. I just want the thoughts to stop.

 

[deadbeat]

I've been having this issue a few times a week where I can't get or stay asleep because I can't get comfortable for the life of me, or I can't turn my brain off. I just managed to fall asleep after trying to get comfortable for awhile, woke up two hours later and got restless leg syndrome. Why is this happening to me.

 

[KleinerWolf]

There are three type of asians,
One that are okay with living in Asia,
The Asian Americans/British/Australians,

and there's the asians that killed themselves.

 

[http-410]

Tfw you visit SS right after a therapy session...

My brain feels crushed. What am I waiting for.

 

[k75]

I'm glad I'm finally not pink anymore.