Random thoughts

[lost illusions]

Right after I posted this, I got to go from 0 to hero and back to 0. I got to be important for 10mins, yay me

 

[SkyBlue]

It's amazing how things can change in hindsight, how sometimes what we think things are can be off in a certain way, and what our minds are capable of figuring out

 

[Redt2go]

It's amazing how things can change in hindsight, how sometimes what we think things are can be off in a certain way, and what our minds are capable of figuring out

Agreed

 

[brighter]

I used to keep myself going by saying "It isn't gonna be like this forever. I won't have to go through this forever. It will go away some day."

 

[Redt2go]

I used to keep myself going by saying "It isn't gonna be like this forever. I won't have to go through this forever. It will go away some day."

That's what got me through childhood...

 

[Redt2go]

Cannot wait to see what awaits me beyond death

 

[Redt2go]

Took a long warm bath, paid for a massage still have so much pain not even emotional like actual chest and stomach pain in addition to emotional :/

 

[15dec]

I just want to run away from it all

 

[Memento Mori]

I just want to run away from it all

me too, can't wait to actually do it. need to save some more money and hope that I'll never come back to my home country, at least not alive...

 

[VoloFataliDoce]

I don't want to waste a new post about this, but I want to thank all of you for being involved in such a wonderful forum. I'm so glad to have other like-minded people to chat with. It makes the burden less of a burden. Seriously, you're all wonderful people.

 

[Redt2go]

I don't want to waste a new post about this, but I want to thank all of you for being involved in such a wonderful forum. I'm so glad to have other like-minded people to chat with. It makes the burden less of a burden. Seriously, you're all wonderful people.

 

[Redt2go]

I have a severe impulse about 3x a day to just kms on the spot.

 

[VoloFataliDoce]

I have a severe impulse about 3x a day to just kms on the spot.

Same here, but I don't go through with it. Still waiting on the proper stuff. I'm sorry you're having those feelings. I hate seeing anyone else in pain, but here we are. If I could take away yours and everyone else's suffering, I would. Unfortunately it doesn't work that way.

 

[Redt2go]

Same here, but I don't go through with it. Still waiting on the proper stuff. I'm sorry you're having those feelings. I hate seeing anyone else in pain, but here we are. If I could take away yours and everyone else's suffering, I would. Unfortunately it doesn't work that way.

You're so kind

 

[Redt2go]

these are my confessions...

There's a lot of hopelessness both in the city I come from and in my family... My success has given meaning to the lives of a lot of people most importantly my parents. In addition to that there are a lot of young girls that look at me and see hope. A lot of people who poured into me to help me be successful. I'm so sorry to let all of you down but Im tired of fighting so hard to survive I just don't get the same happiness from life... I don't feel anything as I type this. I only know cognitively that I'm being incredibly selfish

 

[wishfulthinking]

Matrix is real.

 

[WhiteRabbit]

I've been pondering on how to make sure I don't shit myself when I CTB. I want to have a last indulgent supper, but I would also like to retain a shred of dignity if possible.

 

[2211264]

Housemate watching this. I can remember watching this on VHS as a child.
I wish i could find the "great valley" i think i will soon....

 

[sadsoul]

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Housemate watching this. I can remember watching this on VHS as a child.
I wish i could find the "great valley" i think i will soon....

I loved watching the tv series as a child, especially the parts where they sing

 

[Johnnythefox]

Just received a letter regarding child support, my son will be 23 soon, his sister is 21. I finished paying that some years ago.
It's the tories way of letting you know that they can take a shit on you anytime they want.

 

[Redt2go]

It's weird for me to imagine what I'll be like in death or heaven... I imagine heaven as a place free of disease how ever my beliefs, actions, thought, and feelings are all centered around my personality disorder. If I lose it then who am i ? Will I retain memories of my experiences? Am I reborn? Do I even make it to heaven?

 

[lost illusions]

these are my confessions...

There's a lot of hopelessness both in the city I come from and in my family... My success has given meaning to the lives of a lot of people most importantly my parents. In addition to that there are a lot of young girls that look at me and see hope. A lot of people who poured into me to help me be successful. I'm so sorry to let all of you down but Im tired of fighting so hard to survive I just don't get the same happiness from life... I don't feel anything as I type this. I only know cognitively that I'm being incredibly selfish

Your not selfish, your human

 

[lost illusions]

I got good news, the mill is letting me have a day off. I get to sleep for 6 hours

 

[NumbItAll]

I am Just About Done. ;)

 

[Redt2go]

I've learned too much to ever be truly happy again but I like listening to Disney music bc it reminds me of young hopeful blissful ignorant times

 

[15dec]

I wish I could wake up tomorrow and have something good happen to me; I wish the universe would just magically align and things would just fall into place and I'd never feel this way again. I just want to go to sleep and wake up and be happy...

 

[waived]

^ it'd be nice if good shit happened accidentally just once

 

[JustAboutDone]

I am Just About Done. ;)

Ahem :-)

 

[Angst Filled Fuck Up]

Well I had to forego picking up food today in favor of buying my lady roses for Valentine's day as I am super poor. I don't do well when I'm hungry, and I must warn you all, I am in no mood to be trifled with... mm, trifle.

 

[AndyCurious]

When I know that you know that we all know more than any of us know that one of us know something that is worth to know few things about :p