Random thoughts

[ItsOverIsntIt]

I am so annoyed by my brother lately. He hasnt done anything, but when he comes into my room and asks for something or just talks to me it makes me want to punch him in the face. I dont know what brought this on but I irrationally hate him and it makes me feel bad.

 

[KleinerWolf]

Schatz is such a beautiful word
Hope I can address someone like that oneday.

 

[http-410]

Tired. Slept poorly, had a bunch of bizarre dreams. Feeling tense, probably it will get loud again...

Fortunately I fell asleep again. Had a nice, healthy meal (aside from eating pure peanut butter). But it seems the neighbors making noise again... ugh

 

[Morphinekiss]

I feel like kicking someone's trash can over, which is a very weird occurrence that signals I'm about to flip into some rage cycle.

or I'm just exhausted.

 

[http-410]

Reading these goodbye threads make me sad. I think about their mental and physical pain, their last thoughts, if they changed their mind when it was too late, when/if their bodies are found, about their relatives, their pets...

I honestly can't imagine that the SN method is a peaceful way to go.

 

[nerve]

I hate being a loser

 

[Dr Iron Arc]

My stomach really hurts probably because I ate too much food again. I would like my weight to be gone but I can't bear to imagine what suffering id have to go through to get there. Knowing myself, I'd even find ways to miss being fat like probably some bullshit about how I've already adapted to having a huge stomach so my balance would be off if I lost it. Sometimes I also appreciate being fat because I'm trying to use it as a deterrent because I'm so afraid I'll hurt people who want to get near me.

 

[KleinerWolf]

I went on tik tok to find some entertainment,
And this random guy orders something at drive through,
Says "I want to kill myself"

Proof law of attraction is real lmao.

 

[Deleted member 19654]

I have a dentist appointment on Wednesday because I need fillings. I don't want to go but I need to.

 

[KleinerWolf]

I went on til tok to find some entertainment,
And this random guy orders something at drive through,
Says "I want to kill myself"

Proof law of attraction is real lmao.

Few minutes later another random Tik tok video on nail polish:

"Don't kill yourself
I might!"

 

[KleinerWolf]

I'm seeing things that reflect current me,
In miraculously mysterious ways,
I've really gotta change how I think
before my worst fears materialize.

It's never too late to seek change.
Save yourself from the vicious cycle.

 

[nerve]

Crying a lot today I feel sick. Just when I think it's almost over, it starts back up again.

 

[ItsOverIsntIt]

I got some stickers that I ordered in the mail today. They made me happy for a little while. But im struggling to find happiness in other things I just feel bad all the time and literally the highlight of my day was just getting some stickers. What??

 

[Morphinekiss]

I don't belong anywhere

 

[KleinerWolf]

I don't belong anywhere

 

[ArtsyDrawer]

A coworker of mine has constructed a nice insult about another coworker: sometimes good thoughts chase him, it's just that he's faster.
Let me clarify, the guy we're talking about here is a dumbass of previously unknown, thought to be impossible caliber!

 

[http-410]

Bored, tired, sitting in this dark room, it's too warm and humid outside.

Well, I have to get ready and be productive, even if I'm not in the mood. I don't want to go outside.

 

[throwaway123]

I just puked.All the stress in my life, my stomach can't seem to keep up. What am I even doing to myself. I should rest but there's no time to rest. I've been long considering a break ...maybe I'll take it. I hope there is going to be a lockdown soon. I need the break. man the lockdown a couple of months ago was godsent. best thing that ever happened to me. there was a study in the uk and it said most people wanted the lockdown to continue. working/schooling from home is nice. the US is really bad. people lost their jobs and i feel that they are sliding into becoming a third world country. if they arent already. its only a matter of time until it hits the rest of the developing world. the good years are over. :(

 

[http-410]

Spent 2 hours to help someone out, went home, felt like before. No matter what I do, it makes no difference anymore. I'm going to do some exercises now and guess what: afterwards I will feel exactly the same as before, maybe a little bit more tired.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

What did I do to deserve this again? I thought you would be different, but you ended up being just like everyone else. People end up liking me for some reason until they see who I really am, then they distance themselves and eventually just drop me. This happens again and again. It gets to the point where I feel scared and sick to my stomach if people seem like they actually want to talk.

It's really just more evidence that I should kill myself; it's proof that I'm toxic and people are better off without me in their lives. Obviously this isn't one of the main reasons for my suicide, but it's just a background trend in my life that's awfully discouraging.

And this isn't against anyone on here. The compliment thread as well as general interactions with people on here shows me that y'all are real and mean what you say. It just literally hurts knowing people care.

Spent 2 hours to help someone out, went home, felt like before. No matter what I do, it makes no difference anymore. I'm going to do some exercises now and guess what: afterwards I will feel exactly the same as before, maybe a little bit more tired.

I understand how you feel.

 

[throwaway123]

I'm done with this shit.

 

[WOODESITY]

It's Very frustrating and sucks that I work for the scraps while helping big corporation get richer and literally supporting wage slavery, 10 hours of work a day just to sustain my life and get by isn't worth it

 

[Worthless_nobody]

So bored with life. There is nothing for me to enjoy. I don't want to live don't want to die. It's all so pointless and mundane. I really can't believe people think this world is great, life is a gift and things are ok. I just want a normal brain for a day...it must be nice to not be fundamentally fucked in the head and constantly negative and cynical and wishing for death but at the same time mad and sad I have to ctb.

 

[Sensei]

I'm going to kill my fellow commuter one of these days. Nonstop small talk makes Sensei a dull boy.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

I'm going to kill my fellow commuter one of these days. Nonstop small talk makes Sensei a dull boy.

Wish we had a laughing reaction for comments like this

 

[http-410]

I just remembered yesterday that a doctor prescribed me meto years ago. I've bunkered it without knowing what it is and now I can't find it anymore.

 

[BitterlyAlive]

I just remembered yesterday that a doctor prescribed me meto years ago. I've bunkered it without knowing what it is and now I can't find it anymore.

Ooooh, the plot thickens. Are you sure that even if you found it, it's not expired?

 

[http-410]

I just looked it up: the expiration date is supposed to be up to 5 years (don't take this for granted).

Could be still good, if I still have it. Tomorrow I will search for it more thoroughly, but I'm afraid I disposed of it.

 

[Wayfaerer]

Life should come with a redo button.

 

[GrumpyFrog]

People seems to have more common sense regarding the right/obligation to live and the right/need to procreate when it comes to companion animals than they have when it comes to fellow human beings.