Put the mask down

[un.exist]

So tired of pretending, i wish i had someone, but im laughing and smiling as if i didnt just try to kill myself two nights ago

I'm so alone
And the 2 people who know just make shit worse

Im really at my wits end, i dont know what else im supposed to do

 

[39hatsune]

im sorry about your situation, i can relate

it really is tiring, i hope you'll feel better soon

 

[Dejected 55]

Pretending takes a lot out of you... I still have trouble being completely open and resort to holding back sometimes... but I've really been trying lately to just be honest about the shitstorm I'm in and not sugarcoating for others' benefit.

 

[Sphinxi]

A small quote from Yukio Mishima's Confessions of a Mask that I enjoy a lot:
"Added to the gloomy irritation that always threatened me when I was alone, the grief that had so shaken the foundations of my existence this morning when I had seen Sonoko was now revived still more poignantly
within my heart. It proclaimed that every word I had spoken and every act I had performed that day had been false: having discovered that it was less painful to decide a thing was false in its entirety than to torture myself with doubts as to which part might be true and which false, I had already become gradually familiar with this way of deliberately unmasking my falseness to myself. And even as I lay thinking, my tenacious uneasiness concerning what I called the basic condition of being a human being, concerning what I called the positive human psychology, did nothing but lead me around in endless circles of introspection."
Mishima himself would commit suicide later in his life.

 

[InevitableDeath]

If you're around others you have to pretend, otherwise they will not be around you.

Because people are mostly fucking cunts