Venting when can i die?

[catbunny]

Im so tired. so pathetically wanting to die. Every single day i fell asleep i wish its my last day. I feel pain everyday. I tried to CTB multiple times, being overdosed multiple times and Im still here. I dont want to be here.
I wish they forgot me on that tray completely the day was borned and didnt just save me. Why everytime I tried CTB, someone saved me. I should be grateful? I WISH I FEEL GREATFUL but No I DO NOT. Please stop. Why did you save me for what? To keep being miserable each day?
Why cant I just die instead of living like this? Why? Its always getting better a little bit and then it went down, deeper each time. I am so tired. I am so exhausted. Why cant I just die? I just want to die. Please just let me die. Im so tired, im so sick of this.
When can I die

 

[marleybarley]

I agree I wish to die everyday its torture

 

[alreadyfound]

I was thinking of doing it in an abandoned building, since no one will find my body for a few days. I knew one, but when I went there, the entrance had been bricked up so I went back home

 

[catbunny]

I was thinking of doing it in an abandoned building, since no one will find my body for a few days. I knew one, but when I went there, the entrance had been bricked up so I went back home

i was thinking of doing it in multiple ways, like i was cooking when i thought what if right now i just stab myself. but i know it wont work so i didnt do that.