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chaosandquiet

chaosandquiet

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Sep 27, 2022
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Hey hey. Been following here a bit before I joined but must say...y'all are blowing my mind. I'm definitely out of my league here. I've never talked to anyone about this shit before, so my knowledge of methods and access and all is beginner status at best. Even the terminology and acronyms are throwing me. I'd like to post actual questions or comments and gain access to search/PM soon, but damn...I'm not even sure where to start. Forgive me for sounding like an idiot, bc I def will. Nice to find a place with so much support, though. Cheers
 
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thebunny

thebunny

be what they fear.
Aug 19, 2022
227
welcome to the forum! i hope you find what you're looking for here. i know it can be quite overwhelming, but rest assured that everyone here is as helpful and supportive as they can be. sending hugs! 🫂

as for acronyms and terminologies, the most common ones are:
  • ctb = catch the bus [to commit suicide]
  • si = survival instinct
  • sn = sodium nitrite
  • n = nembutal
there's a thread somewhere here that lists the other acronyms that can be found here, but i can't link it at the moment. anyway, i wish you the best of luck and hope you find your peace.
 
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SunshineAndSuicide

SunshineAndSuicide

Sunshine is what's keeping me alive
Aug 24, 2022
75
Welcome! Feel free to ask questions, everyone on this site is very supportive and understanding ♡
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
15,420
Welcome. I'm sorry life has brought you here. I know what you mean, I think at the start, everyone finds the acronyms confusing. A bit like a secret club but it's amazing how fast they start to look normal. I agree with the other posts. This feels like a very supportive and safe environment to talk about the stuff you probably can't express to anyone else. I hope you can find some comfort here.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,335
This website can be confusing especially for new members. They don't exactly make it easy for new members to find what they need to know about methods, but I hope that you find what you are looking for here. I wish you the best.
 
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Hollowillow

Hollowillow

The only place that allows negative feelings.
Aug 7, 2022
1,527
Hey hey. Been following here a bit before I joined but must say...y'all are blowing my mind. I'm definitely out of my league here. I've never talked to anyone about this shit before, so my knowledge of methods and access and all is beginner status at best. Even the terminology and acronyms are throwing me. I'd like to post actual questions or comments and gain access to search/PM soon, but damn...I'm not even sure where to start. Forgive me for sounding like an idiot, bc I def will. Nice to find a place with so much support, though. Cheers
Oh the codes! It was hell for me too. Still is. People are so smart here. It pains me to see that extremely intelligent people will kill themselves instead to be treasured by the world. The chemicals cocktails & building a gas death mask... It's so beyond me...

I tried to look into partial hanging but the knot alone is pure art

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I did it twice! So proud.

So just don't worry. I whine like a little bitch but still managed to make friends. I learned some stuff along the way

Enjoy & welcome!
 
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Dead Meat

Dead Meat

DOOMED
Oct 10, 2018
18,394
Welcome to the forum I hope you enjoy your stay here,much Love and Hugs to You :heart::hug::heart::hug::heart::hug::heart::hug:
 
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chaosandquiet

chaosandquiet

Member
Sep 27, 2022
56
Thank you for the kind welcome, all!
welcome to the forum! i hope you find what you're looking for here. i know it can be quite overwhelming, but rest assured that everyone here is as helpful and supportive as they can be. sending hugs! 🫂

as for acronyms and terminologies, the most common ones are:
  • ctb = catch the bus [to commit suicide]
  • si = survival instinct
  • sn = sodium nitrite
  • n = nembutal
there's a thread somewhere here that lists the other acronyms that can be found here, but i can't link it at the moment. anyway, i wish you the best of luck and hope you find your peace.
Hey, thanks so much! CTB was a new one for me. I've found a lot of helpful info in threads - just tryin' to find my way around :) Thanks for the kind welcome!
Welcome! Feel free to ask questions, everyone on this site is very supportive and understanding ♡
Thank you!! Everyone really does seem very supportive here. Grateful to have found this site. Thanks for saying hi
 
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chaosandquiet

chaosandquiet

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Sep 27, 2022
56
This website can be confusing especially for new members. They don't exactly make it easy for new members to find what they need to know about methods, but I hope that you find what you are looking for here. I wish you the best.
I really appreciate that and wish you the best, as well
Oh the codes! It was hell for me too. Still is. People are so smart here. It pains me to see that extremely intelligent people will kill themselves instead to be treasured by the world. The chemicals cocktails & building a gas death mask... It's so beyond me...

I tried to look into partial hanging but the knot alone is pure art

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I did it twice! So proud.

So just don't worry. I whine like a little bitch but still managed to make friends. I learned some stuff along the way

Enjoy & welcome!
Hey, thanks for the welcome! Cool, we can both whine like little bitches lol. Cheers
Welcome to the forum I hope you enjoy your stay here,much Love and Hugs to You :heart::hug::heart::hug::heart::hug::heart::hug:
Thank you! Love your avatar, btw
 
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theboy

theboy

Illuminated
Jul 15, 2022
3,416
Hello!
How are you?
 
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Hollowillow

Hollowillow

The only place that allows negative feelings.
Aug 7, 2022
1,527
Hey, thanks for the welcome! Cool, we can both whine like little bitches lol. Cheers
Sounds good to me *whines, shrieks! Begs for euthanasia!* High five. Good times 😆
 
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makethepainstop

makethepainstop

Visionary
Sep 16, 2022
2,029
Howdy! Ask any questions you like, we are pretty friendly here. I can tell you there is nothing in the world as enjoyable as speaking your mind without fear of censure or worse. Dude like here its ok to be you. Hugs to you.
 
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chaosandquiet

chaosandquiet

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Sep 27, 2022
56
Howdy! Ask any questions you like, we are pretty friendly here. I can tell you there is nothing in the world as enjoyable as speaking your mind without fear of censure or worse. Dude like here its ok to be you. Hugs to you.
Seriously, thank you! I feel like I've been censored my entire life. It actually feels pretty strange to be able to say how I'm really feeling, especially about a topic considered taboo by so many. I want to die because I'm done living and I want to be in control of how I die and when. Words I've never said out loud, but it's nice to have a place to say that and know that people will get it. Hugs to you, as well, friend
Hello!
How are you?
Hi there! Ha, that is a question I just don't know how to answer anymore. I'm just here. How are you?
 
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