Numb

[cactusflower]

I'm supposed to be driving right now to see my family. But I just feel numb. I planned this trip and everything, requesting and exposing my vulnerability to my supervisor at work, etc, all so I can have the opportunity to maybe feel some modicum of happiness again. I've been away for a long time now, isolated from people, so I think it'll be good for me. But it's so difficult when my suicidal ideation has been so intense the past few weeks especially. I'm afraid of going outside.

 

[peelingbananas]

do you think going could help you out? or do you think maybe you need some time to yourself?

 

[cactusflower]

do you think going could help you out? or do you think maybe you need some time to yourself?

I'm actually on the drive right now.
It's giving me a lot of time to think since it's a long drive I don't know I'm going to be here for about a week so we'll see how this goes

 

[peelingbananas]

I'm actually on the drive right now.
It's giving me a lot of time to think since it's a long drive I don't know I'm going to be here for about a week so we'll see how this goes

well hey, i hope it goes well for you! really hope you have a good time there and end up feeling even a little better, you deserve it! :)

 

[SlenderM]

damn, sorry you feel this way OP, as person above said, hope things get better.

- S