wasteandvoid
ill never be what you wanted im your lucifer
- Jun 20, 2023
- 122
what do you even do here
like actually what do you even do on earth while you're alive i feel like ive already experienced everything other than death and things that i cannot because of financial means, but generally its a range of things ive already experienced that i will continue to see over my entire life
is the goal to replicate the same pleasurable experience over and over? i feel like ive already reached as far as i can in terms of things to know and be aware of that exist in the world that are exciting to me, and not some extremely niche academic things i dont really care about
tf do you even do
i can express myself in art or something but it only lasts as long as i feel like i want to express and vent that feeling
is the point to keep getting involved with other people and repeat the same varied social stories over and over and over again
what is there to really do
building something means nothing to me i dont even feel anything when i look at something i achieve at all
its just like whenever the novelty dies, the world dies with it and becomes fucking dull again, and then i have to search for something new in the now smaller pile of things that are interesting and stimulating
i just dont care it all its all like nothing to me
i dont care to replicate my life and days going on to dedicate it to something that doesn't even have use
like actually what do you even do on earth while you're alive i feel like ive already experienced everything other than death and things that i cannot because of financial means, but generally its a range of things ive already experienced that i will continue to see over my entire life
is the goal to replicate the same pleasurable experience over and over? i feel like ive already reached as far as i can in terms of things to know and be aware of that exist in the world that are exciting to me, and not some extremely niche academic things i dont really care about
tf do you even do
i can express myself in art or something but it only lasts as long as i feel like i want to express and vent that feeling
is the point to keep getting involved with other people and repeat the same varied social stories over and over and over again
what is there to really do
building something means nothing to me i dont even feel anything when i look at something i achieve at all
its just like whenever the novelty dies, the world dies with it and becomes fucking dull again, and then i have to search for something new in the now smaller pile of things that are interesting and stimulating
i just dont care it all its all like nothing to me
i dont care to replicate my life and days going on to dedicate it to something that doesn't even have use
