Nothing after 2018 feels real

[sserafim]

Nothing after 2018 feels real. It feels like my life right now is a nightmare and not even real. It feels like a bad dream. It honestly still feels like 2018 imo, but it's already 2023. I think 2018 was the last "normal" or "real" year.

 

[Spiritual survivor]

interesting u say that, for me I thought 2019 was the last year that was the former world as we knew it never to return again.

 

[bluebus]

So true. Everything after 2018 feels like a kind of fever dream.

 

[sserafim]

interesting u say that, for me I thought 2019 was the last year that was the former world as we knew it never to return again.

Yeah, I actually think 2019 was the last "normal" year, but 2018 was the last one that felt completely and fully real to me. 2019 already started to feel like a fever dream to me

So true. Everything after 2018 feels like a kind of fever dream.

I can't believe that it was 5 years ago, that's honestly insane. It feels like yesterday, or like I'm still in 2018.

 

[Spiritual survivor]

Yeah, I actually think 2019 was the last "normal" year, but 2018 was the last one that felt completely and fully real to me. 2019 already started to feel like a fever dream to me

I can't believe that it was 5 years ago, that's honestly insane. It feels like yesterday, or like I'm still in 2018.

When I think of 2018 I tear up I just think back to myself then and where my mind was at, how much I've changed since then. I was so messed up and vulnerable to abusive people more so.

 

[nostalgia addict]

covid fucked everything up

 

[Zegers]

For me it's the same, recluse with the pandemic just like i was before and now, at least it could have been a zombie pandemic, it would have been more fun.

 

[avaruus]

For me, it's kind of opposite. After 2018, it felt like waking up from a sleep, reality sucker punched me in the face real hard.
You know when people always talk about "suddenly gaining conciousness at 5 years old" or something, it felt like i had a second awakening.

 

[sserafim]

For me, it's kind of opposite. After 2018, it felt like waking up from a sleep, reality sucker punched me in the face real hard.
You know when people always talk about "suddenly gaining conciousness at 5 years old" or something, it felt like i had a second awakening.

Hmm interesting. Wdym by that? Did anything significant happen in 2018 to make you feel that way?

 

[dumbgirlonline]

Nothing after 2018 feels real. It feels like my life right now is a nightmare and not even real. It feels like a bad dream. It honestly still feels like 2018 imo, but it's already 2023. I think 2018 was the last "normal" or "real" year.

Things really haven't been the same since Kanye dropped "lift yourself" huh

…but I get where you're coming from. Sometimes I wish I'd go back and relive 2018 forever.

 

[LigottiSchopenhauer]

covid fucked everything up

Yeah, I don't think I've felt "normal" since March 2020. The world ended that month, and we're all living in the post-apocalypse. 2018 was the last good year of my life, but 2019 at least felt somewhat decent and explicable. The 2020s are just a horrifying nightmare decade.

 

[sserafim]

Yeah, I don't think I've felt "normal" since March 2020. The world ended that month, and we're all living in the post-apocalypse. 2018 was the last good year of my life, but 2019 at least felt somewhat decent and explicable. The 2020s are just a horrifying nightmare decade.

Yeah, we're literally in a post-apocalyptic world that thinks it's normal again. I can't believe it's been 3 years since the pandemic started. That's honestly insane. I think the pandemic also warped and distorted my sense of time. I was 19 when it started and I feel 19 mentally at most (actually more like 17 or 18 lol). Maybe I was meant to die in 2018 or something, I never even wanted to reach adulthood. I hate the 2020s, they're a terrible decade. I'm planning on checking out before 2025 so I'll never have to reach 25. 25 is my self-deemed maximum exit point.

 

[LigottiSchopenhauer]

Yeah, we're literally in a post-apocalyptic world that thinks it's normal again. I can't believe it's been 3 years since the pandemic started. That's honestly insane. I think the pandemic also warped and distorted my sense of time. I was 19 when it started and I feel 19 mentally at most (actually more like 17 or 18 lol). Maybe I was meant to die in 2018 or something, I never even wanted to reach adulthood. I hate the 2020s, they're a terrible decade. I'm planning on checking out before 2025 so I'll never have to reach 25. 25 is my self-deemed maximum exit point.

I also feel stuck at the age that Covid started. I'm 26 now, and I've decided to drink myself to death. Once I'm at the point where liver disease makes it so I can't enjoy drinking anymore, then I'll shoot myself with the .44 magnum I own. I don't even want to think about what this world will look like in 2025, much less 2030 or later.

 

[sserafim]

For me it's the same, recluse with the pandemic just like i was before and now, at least it could have been a zombie pandemic, it would have been more fun.

Literally!

Honestly sometimes I fantasize about living in a post-apocalyptic world and having society completely rebuilt and restructured, but the world went back to normal. Nothing changed. We're back to our same old ways. We're still forced to live in this late-stage capitalist society and under capitalism. I wish there could've been a paradigm shift or something

 

[nostalgia addict]

Yeah, I don't think I've felt "normal" since March 2020. The world ended that month, and we're all living in the post-apocalypse. 2018 was the last good year of my life, but 2019 at least felt somewhat decent and explicable. The 2020s are just a horrifying nightmare decade.

during covid it felt like purgatory, now it feels like hell

 

[sserafim]

during covid it felt like purgatory, now it feels like hell

I honestly prefer covid times to the hell of now. I wish we could've been in lockdown and quarantine forever. My life right now is hellish. Adulthood is a living hell

 

[passivethought121]

For me, it's kind of opposite. After 2018, it felt like waking up from a sleep, reality sucker punched me in the face real hard.
You know when people always talk about "suddenly gaining conciousness at 5 years old" or something, it felt like i had a second awakening.

This is how I feel. Before, it felt like a happy dream, where I just existed to exist. I didn't feel like I was in, or doing anything. I didn't think. And as a result, I was happier. I feel such a disconnect from my pre-2018 self and my current self that I could consider it a different person. And then, I started thinking. Critically, logically, etc. Feel like I gained sensation in 2010 and thoughts in 2018.

 

[jussrav]

covid fucked everything up

Yes long covid twice has messed me up and a tumour. Now mental health problems. No sleepibt

 

[Captive_Mind515]

On a more positive note, at least we've fcuked the environment and economy up so bad that we'll probably kill off our horrible species very soon... there's always a silver lining in these things if you search hard enough for it.

 

[cscott]

For me, it's kind of opposite. After 2018, it felt like waking up from a sleep, reality sucker punched me in the face real hard.
You know when people always talk about "suddenly gaining conciousness at 5 years old" or something, it felt like i had a second awakening.

I say the exact same it was like a harsh second awakening and this time the veil was ripped fully from eyes and I started walking through the valley of the shadow of death

 

[cosnidering_ctb]

For me things after 2016 are weird.

 

[avaruus]

Hmm interesting. Wdym by that? Did anything significant happen in 2018 to make you feel that way?

Not really, i guess i just grew up and got a bunch of expectations and responsibilities thrown at me. Also i became more isolated from my childhood friends at that point.

 

[Zegers]

in the meantime we are deteriorating year after year while the only one who knows the cure is Jared Leto lol

 

[gonnaregretthis]

omg... in 2018 i had a very poor attempt at ctb and since leaving the hospital i feel like every thing since then has been like a hellish afterlife..... nothing feels the same none of my relationships at the time felt real........ so every time someone says something like this it feels super reassuring even tho i know it might be covid related

Yeah, we're literally in a post-apocalyptic world that thinks it's normal again. I can't believe it's been 3 years since the pandemic started. That's honestly insane. I think the pandemic also warped and distorted my sense of time. I was 19 when it started and I feel 19 mentally at most (actually more like 17 or 18 lol). Maybe I was meant to die in 2018 or something, I never even wanted to reach adulthood. I hate the 2020s, they're a terrible decade. I'm planning on checking out before 2025 so I'll never have to reach 25. 25 is my self-deemed maximum exit point.

i relate to this so much. i was in my early 20s in 2018 and suddenly im gonna be 30 next year and my life is completely a mess. gonna have to figure out how to ctb by my 30th birthday if things don't improve and i know they wont

 

[cosmic-joke]

Nothing after 2018 feels real. It feels like my life right now is a nightmare and not even real. It feels like a bad dream. It honestly still feels like 2018 imo, but it's already 2023. I think 2018 was the last "normal" or "real" year.

Omg so weird 2018 is when I had my breakdown and I know I switched timelines I thought it was just me but loads of ppl have said that everything feels like a satirical simulation since 2018 I think the hadron collider created a partical with infinite mass combined with the black hole made us switch timelines, something isn't right it's like I went from heaven to hell In 2018

 

[sserafim]

Omg so weird 2018 is when I had my breakdown and I know I switched timelines I thought it was just me but loads of ppl have said that everything feels like a satirical simulation since 2018 I think the hadron collider created a partical with infinite mass combined with the black hole made us switch timelines, something isn't right it's like I went from heaven to hell In 2018

We shifted timelines like dimensional jumping right? The world has just felt off since 2018

 

[cosmic-joke]

We shifted timelines like dimensional jumping right? The world has just felt off since 2018

So I had a vivid vision like nothing I've ever experienced, I saw a family tree type of graph showing me one orginal reality that splits to 2 then 4 then 8 etc, I did so much hedonistic occult stuff in 2018 I sold my soul to the devil from for fucking xanax and pussy, I had a "hallucination" showing me the infinite timelines, and after it had a fallout 3 style stats menu with strength perception etc all the stats went to 0 then a new category popped up and all the points went to satire, after that I shattered my whole face in a car accident lost all my friends and fam and the world went satiricaly crazy covid, trump, aliens etc etc sending you love bro

 

[Dying2077]

God: did you remember 2018/2019/2020/2021 ?
Me: 2018/19/20/21 i was drunk!

 

[sserafim]

Omg so weird 2018 is when I had my breakdown and I know I switched timelines I thought it was just me but loads of ppl have said that everything feels like a satirical simulation since 2018 I think the hadron collider created a partical with infinite mass combined with the black hole made us switch timelines, something isn't right it's like I went from heaven to hell In 2018

I've also heard about this theory of the hadron collider and CERN…

 

[Suspect_Device]

2018 was a bullshit year I barely remember it.