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Leonard_Bangley39

Leonard_Bangley39

I am a rock. I am an island
Nov 6, 2025
346
just nothing. i don't feel anything right now. i don't know what i was hoping for, but i just feel nothing. not happy, not sad, not angry, not depressed, just blank. i wish i could just fast forward 60 years from now and skip to my death already. this life is becoming boring and there's not much else left for me
 
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iwkmsssb

iwkmsssb

what is it that i am?
Jun 8, 2026
100
i also feel super numb, when i distract i sometimes think im faking it because i feel okay for a while. but then i fall back to the numb default state.
 
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rachel_rayrayy

rachel_rayrayy

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Jun 15, 2026
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I totally relate.. The numbness is hard to make any use of, it's boring, if not outright demotivating to a degree.. I do hope things get better for you. đź’™
 
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Spite

I wish I never existed.
Aug 20, 2025
506
That's kind of how I've felt over the past two weeks or so now after feeling so mentally destroyed and utterly broken for so many years now. I feel like something switched off in my brain recently, and now I don't feel all that much. I'm like an emotionless robot. Numb. If I could press the FFWD button on my entire life and skip the next 50+ years all the way up to my final seconds, I absolutely would.
 

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