no good methods

[nothingnobody]

i wanna kill myself so bad but my only methods would be jumping infront of a car/train, taking 200 aspirins, or asphyxiating myself
what do i do when i cant kill myself? my body is a husk and im ready to move on. such a joke, your mind has been ready to move on for years and yet your body keeps you alive anyways.

 

[Abyssal]

I understand this feeling. The pain of not being able to die when you are more than ready to is a special sort of hell, spent my Christmas with it and I just got out of the thick of it.

This may come off as rude, but the plans you mention sound rather impulsive. I trust you know what is best for yourself, but if you can persevere through this god awful feeling a little longer to think through other options I believe you'll find that overall beneficial, whether that be in getting through this time or finding a method you feel more comfortable with.

 

[FuneralCry]

I certainly understand that it's so dreadful feeling trapped in this existence you just wish to be free from. I hate how existence doesn't come with an eternal offswitch to just eternally cease existing in peace, we really shouldn't have to struggle so much to die on our own terms, I also feel stuck here because suicide is difficult and inaccessible.

 

[Rhizomorph1]

I understand this feeling. The pain of not being able to die when you are more than ready to is a special sort of hell, spent my Christmas with it and I just got out of the thick of it.

This may come off as rude, but the plans you mention sound rather impulsive. I trust you know what is best for yourself, but if you can persevere through this god awful feeling a little longer to think through other options I believe you'll find that overall beneficial, whether that be in getting through this time or finding a method you feel more comfortable with.

I second this. Especially with the aspirins. I've stated the reasons why this is probably a really bad idea in my thread here: https://sanctioned-suicide.net/threads/a-caution-about-drug-poisonings-ods-and-cutting.144879/

There are far better methods if you spend some time preparing. It will pay off even if it feels painful to exist/put in the effort during the preparation phase.

I seriously empathize with the dread.