My urge to ctb is nearly gone now that I have SN.

[Wrennie]

I have my SN on hand and you're right that survival instinct is a total b*tch. I'm going to try *tasting* and spitting out my SN to gradually condition myself to the flavor in order to help overcome my SI over time (I won't be using enough to kill me or harm me, nor will I be swallowing any of it).

The only reason I was able to jump off of a building in a suicide attempt was because a drug I was on got rid of my ability to fully grasp "cause & effect" and made me feel like the actions I was taking weren't really happening and thus wouldn't have consequences in reality.

 

[Deleted member 17949]

A relatively common experience really. People often feel empowered and freed by having a method so available. It makes you feel less stress and less trapped. It it powerful enough that some people really start to recover off the back of it because the knowledge that they can leave at any time removes such a huge weight from them.

 

[Snatsbats]

I bought N from A and now i regret it. I already have SN and i think it is more aggressive so if it works it is more reliable. Also if it fails the consequences are not so big as with failure of N. I emailed him if it was possible for a refund but im scared it isnt.

Maybe someone else wants to have my N?

 

[these_days9]

Life is always a better choice than death.

I don't think you meant much by this and not trying to blame or start anything, but just want to ask to please be a little more thoughtful before making sweeping statements like this.

 

[anxivoid]

Same.