Discussion my reason for ctb

[chronicdissosiation]

ive never had healthy relationships, despite how much ive tried. ive always given my all, but it seems like no matter what i do, ill never have somebody to call mine. everyone seems to leave me or turn against me, and its my main reason for ctb. is this irrational? is my reason to ctb just plain stupid?

 

[eggsausagerice]

no no no this is totally a valid reason. this is actually the main reason i want to do it too and what i've written in my past suicide notes lol. i just don't think i can keep living if it feels like i'm going to spend the rest of my life blocking people or drifting away from my friends as they find partners and aren't as interested in talking to me anymore. i think that chronic loneliness and isolation as an adult is terrible and soul crushing. i can't really describe it to people that are able to connect with others or form healthy relationships because it isn't a lifelong struggle for them. even if i got diagnosed with a personality disorder i would still get trapped in the same pitfalls or have people lose interest in me over and over again.

 

[JeyJeyOfJeypore]

ive never had healthy relationships, despite how much ive tried. ive always given my all, but it seems like no matter what i do, ill never have somebody to call mine. everyone seems to leave me or turn against me, and its my main reason for ctb. is this irrational? is my reason to ctb just plain stupid?

Its not stupid but...
That sucks...
Another cute girl is gonna kill herself