I'd like to ask around: Has anyone else experienced this—that people struggling with addiction (especially alcoholics) just keep producing children like bedbugs and then never take responsibility for them?
Both of my parents are alcoholics; my father was also a heavy smoker, and both seem to have disabilities that no one ever explained to me properly. They were just wage slaves or unemployed.
They never cared whether I had enough money or a safe environment to survive, where I can move freely and create something good. I have this image in my head of flies that lay their eggs in shit.
My mother often stole my birthday money to give it to my sister. My father abandoned the family and never paid money. My parents left me to deal with the consequences of their choices alone. I have physical and socioeconomic disadvantages because of them.
I have less than they do. When people claim Gen Z has it better than previous generations, that doesn't apply to the children of addicted, low-wage laborers or unemployed parents imo. Just the same shit in the next generation. I don't own anything. They had a house in their prime, but they let it rot—it's uninhabitable now. I'm stuck in a tiny apartment of barely 30 square meters, barely surviving on the german government aid (563 euro a month or nothing because they can cut you off from it) because I can't afford the rent on my own and can't get any workplace, earn big money. I live in an area where I'm exposed to hate crimes (mostly verbal, indirect bullying, passiv aggressions and stares, risk of rape, neighbors in the rich house next to me can take footage when I open my windows), then again since yesterday constant noise from neighbors above, and toxic smoke from them (they're smoking weed or doing something else that triggers allergies and I take Desloratadin against this and 2023 filled the air holes in my kitchen and wc with filter fabric). I don't really even get fresh air and I have allergic reactions but not lethal yet.
I wish since years I could move away, but for women like me, there doesn't seem to be anything better in Germany. I wish I could find a community of women who are antinatalist and follow a 6B4T lifestyle, but that doesn't exist. And I'm just completely drained from all the stress around me.
I'm just trapped in a space where you're bombarded with noise from your neighbors day in and day out, even in the nights, making you exhausted—even at 3:47 AM in Germany, they're still loud over hours. You wait and hope they or you'll die soon. Or maybe you'll end up homeless first. Either way, no one cares—the alcoholic parents, the state, no one.
I'd even go so far as to say Germany in 2026 is just like the Middle Ages or Afghanistan if you're unlucky enough to have such terrible parents and end up poor, disabled, and female. The only difference today is that instead of candles, you've got a cheap smartphone with a flashlight, and you can at least go online to distract yourself or read something.
Because of my appearance–my face and body, which many people dismiss as ugly, stupid, or abnormal–I couldn't finish school or move forward in life. The odinary people bullie unattractiv people. All I can do is lie in bed, let the days pass, and hope that the people around me (who are loud, apparently involved in human trafficking, and outside the passersby who look down on me) die early or I can go finally, so I can finally have some peace. And this has been my reality for years. The constant noise from my neighbors gave me shingles in 2023. Before this it wasn't so much better.
As someone who's been a victim of violence, neglect, and abuse from both my parents and society, it's shocking that I've had to endure this. No one in my life has ever tried to improve my quality of life. You can't handle this alone, especially when you're completely propertyless and pathologized as mentally ill. Society has already killed me—it just keeps exploiting what's left. I don't think anyone would want to live like this, and I'm sure many wouldn't have waited as long as I with CTB.
Also I've filed reports and demand compensation for my suffering –something I'll try again this week. At least then I can say I tried. And I always thought I'd just die in my sleep, maybe from a heart attack caused by energy drinks.
I wish the people around me who harass, stigmatize, and traumatize me would get severe illnesses and finally die before me. Without them, I could've had a better life. Sadly, people like this–ruthless and malevolent–are everywhere, and they just move on with their lives without a second thought. They only feel Schadenfreude.
Nobody does anything against them, and there is nowhere to go. The help services in Germany are scam and commercial. I think it isn't worth to survive further just to endure another day of loneliness, traumatic memories– big thanks to the psychotherapeutic system, the labor wage slaves in the psychiatric clinic, and the policemen, they abducted me, mistreated me, and then released me back into the same situation–only worse, because I am now suffering from an even more intense character assasination in my area. What they did is nothing less than oppression.
I never believed that it is worth to endure another day of this and poverty, noise, physical stress/pain, systemtic discrimination.
But I worry that my CTB fails. I only have a petroleum heater for camping (mobiler Petroliumofen) here to try the CO method and lamp oil. I wish I could find a way to get 10 Fentalyn patches and just use them to end my life. I never consumed any drugs and have metabolic disabilities with kidney and maybe thyroid problems, thanks to my parents. I think 10 Fentanyl patches are extreme lethal in my case and painless. I don't want to live anymore–especially not with all this noise and I know there is no help and there's nothing left in life for me except violence. The fitter people come just to exploit.
I just want to call it out. I suffer for nothing thanks to my parents and this society who couldn't care less. Many of them are psychos who damage and exploit vulnerable humans and animals.
The injustice started with the fact that these people were allowed to reproduce, and then the weak offspring get's all the blame and bear the brunt of the exploitation. I'm childless and this hopefully ends the cycle at least for my bloodline. I was just here because of such dumb people and misfortune. I'm awake for nothing and have physical pain, never could really afford any change. I can't really shape my own life because you need money and people that help you to do that in this system. I think it is good that at least I've reported what others did to me.
Both of my parents are alcoholics; my father was also a heavy smoker, and both seem to have disabilities that no one ever explained to me properly. They were just wage slaves or unemployed.
They never cared whether I had enough money or a safe environment to survive, where I can move freely and create something good. I have this image in my head of flies that lay their eggs in shit.
My mother often stole my birthday money to give it to my sister. My father abandoned the family and never paid money. My parents left me to deal with the consequences of their choices alone. I have physical and socioeconomic disadvantages because of them.
I have less than they do. When people claim Gen Z has it better than previous generations, that doesn't apply to the children of addicted, low-wage laborers or unemployed parents imo. Just the same shit in the next generation. I don't own anything. They had a house in their prime, but they let it rot—it's uninhabitable now. I'm stuck in a tiny apartment of barely 30 square meters, barely surviving on the german government aid (563 euro a month or nothing because they can cut you off from it) because I can't afford the rent on my own and can't get any workplace, earn big money. I live in an area where I'm exposed to hate crimes (mostly verbal, indirect bullying, passiv aggressions and stares, risk of rape, neighbors in the rich house next to me can take footage when I open my windows), then again since yesterday constant noise from neighbors above, and toxic smoke from them (they're smoking weed or doing something else that triggers allergies and I take Desloratadin against this and 2023 filled the air holes in my kitchen and wc with filter fabric). I don't really even get fresh air and I have allergic reactions but not lethal yet.
I wish since years I could move away, but for women like me, there doesn't seem to be anything better in Germany. I wish I could find a community of women who are antinatalist and follow a 6B4T lifestyle, but that doesn't exist. And I'm just completely drained from all the stress around me.
I'm just trapped in a space where you're bombarded with noise from your neighbors day in and day out, even in the nights, making you exhausted—even at 3:47 AM in Germany, they're still loud over hours. You wait and hope they or you'll die soon. Or maybe you'll end up homeless first. Either way, no one cares—the alcoholic parents, the state, no one.
I'd even go so far as to say Germany in 2026 is just like the Middle Ages or Afghanistan if you're unlucky enough to have such terrible parents and end up poor, disabled, and female. The only difference today is that instead of candles, you've got a cheap smartphone with a flashlight, and you can at least go online to distract yourself or read something.
Because of my appearance–my face and body, which many people dismiss as ugly, stupid, or abnormal–I couldn't finish school or move forward in life. The odinary people bullie unattractiv people. All I can do is lie in bed, let the days pass, and hope that the people around me (who are loud, apparently involved in human trafficking, and outside the passersby who look down on me) die early or I can go finally, so I can finally have some peace. And this has been my reality for years. The constant noise from my neighbors gave me shingles in 2023. Before this it wasn't so much better.
As someone who's been a victim of violence, neglect, and abuse from both my parents and society, it's shocking that I've had to endure this. No one in my life has ever tried to improve my quality of life. You can't handle this alone, especially when you're completely propertyless and pathologized as mentally ill. Society has already killed me—it just keeps exploiting what's left. I don't think anyone would want to live like this, and I'm sure many wouldn't have waited as long as I with CTB.
Also I've filed reports and demand compensation for my suffering –something I'll try again this week. At least then I can say I tried. And I always thought I'd just die in my sleep, maybe from a heart attack caused by energy drinks.
I wish the people around me who harass, stigmatize, and traumatize me would get severe illnesses and finally die before me. Without them, I could've had a better life. Sadly, people like this–ruthless and malevolent–are everywhere, and they just move on with their lives without a second thought. They only feel Schadenfreude.
Nobody does anything against them, and there is nowhere to go. The help services in Germany are scam and commercial. I think it isn't worth to survive further just to endure another day of loneliness, traumatic memories– big thanks to the psychotherapeutic system, the labor wage slaves in the psychiatric clinic, and the policemen, they abducted me, mistreated me, and then released me back into the same situation–only worse, because I am now suffering from an even more intense character assasination in my area. What they did is nothing less than oppression.
I never believed that it is worth to endure another day of this and poverty, noise, physical stress/pain, systemtic discrimination.
But I worry that my CTB fails. I only have a petroleum heater for camping (mobiler Petroliumofen) here to try the CO method and lamp oil. I wish I could find a way to get 10 Fentalyn patches and just use them to end my life. I never consumed any drugs and have metabolic disabilities with kidney and maybe thyroid problems, thanks to my parents. I think 10 Fentanyl patches are extreme lethal in my case and painless. I don't want to live anymore–especially not with all this noise and I know there is no help and there's nothing left in life for me except violence. The fitter people come just to exploit.
I just want to call it out. I suffer for nothing thanks to my parents and this society who couldn't care less. Many of them are psychos who damage and exploit vulnerable humans and animals.
The injustice started with the fact that these people were allowed to reproduce, and then the weak offspring get's all the blame and bear the brunt of the exploitation. I'm childless and this hopefully ends the cycle at least for my bloodline. I was just here because of such dumb people and misfortune. I'm awake for nothing and have physical pain, never could really afford any change. I can't really shape my own life because you need money and people that help you to do that in this system. I think it is good that at least I've reported what others did to me.
