My new suicide attempt

[Forveleth]

Bon voyage! I hope you find peace.

 

[NutOrat]

Goodbye, @braintorture! Wish you peace and happiness in any case!

 

[dalemar]

I cried a little and I wrote my letter. The hang and knot is ready.

Good bye SaSu

Sending A LOT of love to you!
I wish you again, all the best!
I cant imagine how hard circumstances might have been to take you there. I just want to tell you I feel mad respect for you, your determination, and how you coped up with the pressure you had to go after your previous attemp! I am sure you will have the peace you deserve!

 

[Macedonian1987]

Goodbye, may you finally find peace on the other side.

 

[fruitninjamaster]

Find rest, i will remember your soul

 

[ScholarOfDespair]

May you rest in peace :(

I cried a little and I wrote my letter. The hang and knot is ready.

Good bye SaSu

 

[braintorture]

First attempt - pretty crazy.

I just litterally passed out and fell and I thought I slept. Felt like when they give you the laughing gas

I needed to get the hang of it. I'm doing partial suspension mostly with a limited height and on a bed so I have to be quite technical with the rope.

I've been trying idk how many times to get the carotid artery but yeah just 10 seconds ago I passed out and hurt my knees lol I thought I slept. The feeling was crazy

 

[itsgone2]

I needed to get the hang of it. I'm doing partial suspension mostly with a limited height and on a bed so I have to be quite technical with the rope.

Partial seems to have a high fail rate. Was this the plan or nowhere in room for fsh?

 

[braintorture]

I can't risk fsh because that means going outside… should I go to a forest and try fsh? I really wanna do partial

 

[dalemar]

Partial seems to have a high fail rate. Was this the plan or nowhere in room for fsh?

Without being an expert, i think the same. Full seems to have higher success chances.

 

[braintorture]

Just to recap, when I'm having the euphoria and delirious part do I let it happen or not. I'm basically on my knees
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Hello there reporting back.

Second attempt - on my knees, partial. I managed to do the hospital anesthesia like delirium gas.

I finally figured out how to ensure that - and I don't know if that's passing out or not.

Step 1, locate the heartbeat (with the two fingers method) under the Adam's apple, on the right side.
Step 2, press your rope on the heartbeat hard with one hand and use the other to pull the rope above to choke yourself. Apply pressure.


Step 3, put yourself above the ground enough to reach your ligatures max height (basically until it can't go down any longer)

you should start feeling now light headed after 3 to 4 seconds.

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Not sure if I did it correctly and if after the euphoria I actually black out and die so I'll be waiting for some advice.

 

[Eriktf]

Hope you either find peace or get help either way good luck

 

[Al_stargate]

Damn man. I thought after they found you few days ago you'd be closely monitored for a while. I don't know much about hanging and cant help. Sorry it came to this. Wish you well in any case!

 

[instormdrains]

How you feeling big bro

 

[Exhausted546]

Basically yelled and stopped me and then talked about how his wife nearly did the same thing and he was talking to me about getting help and whatever.

He was very nice actually. But pissed me off still.

Mind you some people passed by and didn't react. Only he did

Then he said I don't have a choice to call the cops and remove the rope etc

I was pretty annoyed. See the clip
View attachment 190297

But you had been hanging for 1-2 mins? You were not passed out??

Basically yelled and stopped me and then talked about how his wife nearly did the same thing and he was talking to me about getting help and whatever.

He was very nice actually. But pissed me off still.

Mind you some people passed by and didn't react. Only he did

Then he said I don't have a choice to call the cops and remove the rope etc

I was pretty annoyed. See the clip
View attachment 190297

But you had been hanging for 1-2 mins? You were not passed out??

Just to recap, when I'm having the euphoria and delirious part do I let it happen or not. I'm basically on my knees
—

Hello there reporting back.

Second attempt - on my knees, partial. I managed to do the hospital anesthesia like delirium gas.

I finally figured out how to ensure that - and I don't know if that's passing out or not.

Step 1, locate the heartbeat (with the two fingers method) under the Adam's apple, on the right side.
Step 2, press your rope on the heartbeat hard with one hand and use the other to pull the rope above to choke yourself. Apply pressure.
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View attachment 190342
Step 3, put yourself above the ground enough to reach your ligatures max height (basically until it can't go down any longer)

you should start feeling now light headed after 3 to 4 seconds.

—

Not sure if I did it correctly and if after the euphoria I actually black out and die so I'll be waiting for some advice.

Out of curiosity, I had difficulty with partial too then after seeing many videos of people doing full using a door, it seemed very simple to do a FSH using a door, it's what I'll be going for

 

[bananaolympus]

hopefully everything goes your way this time hope you find peace

 

[Sucka4life]

@braintorture Are you with us?