Venting My head hurts. Hit me with a brick.

[BringMeToLife]

I want one, then the other, and in the meantime I find more options that are impossible combinations of the previous two. I got lost in my own thoughts and I've never been so sick of myself. I'm disgusted with myself. I feel worse than if I'm lost in an unfamiliar place, and I deal with my mind every day. My head is overloaded. I'm thinking whether to voluntarily report to a mental hospital to be drugged. Maybe then it would be a little better. I want to get away from it all. I want to forget. Why is there no thought switch? I wish I could turn them off sometimes and turn them back on... I'm tired of deceiving myself. I don't know what's real and what's a lie anymore. I'm the biggest liar. So disgusting...

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing in this world certainly can be torture but to me mental hospitals sound like horrific places that are best avoided and only lead to more suffering.

 

[Pidgeons_Sparrows]

I want one, then the other, and in the meantime I find more options that are impossible combinations of the previous two. I got lost in my own thoughts and I've never been so sick of myself. I'm disgusted with myself. I feel worse than if I'm lost in an unfamiliar place, and I deal with my mind every day. My head is overloaded. I'm thinking whether to voluntarily report to a mental hospital to be drugged. Maybe then it would be a little better. I want to get away from it all. I want to forget. Why is there no thought switch? I wish I could turn them off sometimes and turn them back on... I'm tired of deceiving myself. I don't know what's real and what's a lie anymore. I'm the biggest liar. So disgusting...

Relatable, i too wish we just all had a built in switch that turned everything off for a while. I guess this is why alcohol and drugs are so popular among society.