paperbaghat
always tired
- Aug 6, 2025
- 30
I'm so exhausted with every aspect of my life. I'm failing school, isolated, don't take care of myself - because it all seems so pointless. I have no aspirations, goals or ideas for the future because I can't even imagine living long enough for them to be realised.
I've tried to bring this up with my therapist, since I believe my hopelessness is the root to all my problems, but she will warn me that if we start discussing my suicidal thoughts again she'll have to contact my parents (I am over 18 so I don't know why this is the case) or even authorities. I have no-one to trust or turn to... I feel like a criminal.
Sometimes I wish I'll wake up one day without an unshakeable feeling of dread. That I'll snap out of it and be able to start living - though I'm not sure what living really is.
I think my mind was made up years ago, and I've just been subconsciously pushing myself towards suicide since then. I can't go on like this.
I've tried to bring this up with my therapist, since I believe my hopelessness is the root to all my problems, but she will warn me that if we start discussing my suicidal thoughts again she'll have to contact my parents (I am over 18 so I don't know why this is the case) or even authorities. I have no-one to trust or turn to... I feel like a criminal.
Sometimes I wish I'll wake up one day without an unshakeable feeling of dread. That I'll snap out of it and be able to start living - though I'm not sure what living really is.
I think my mind was made up years ago, and I've just been subconsciously pushing myself towards suicide since then. I can't go on like this.
