LosinIt20
What’s the point in living if you can’t be alive
- Mar 8, 2020
- 50
I'm departing this world Tuesday at midnight, I found a nice warm seat at the back of the bus..I just thought I'd make a goodbye thread before I go. It sucks it had to come to this but my mind is made up and I don't see any other options. I already have my sn, anxiety meds and I'll get Tagamet on Tuesday. Once I throw out my belongings that's the end of me. But I would like to thank everyone on this forum, I wouldn't know what to do if I didn't find this site. I found an easy way out, without causing any pain to my physical body. Thank you for the conversations I've had when I couldn't find anyone else to talk to, and for letting me open up and be myself. I really hope God forgives me and understands why I chose to end my physical life. I can't wait to run and jump in my husbands arms I miss him dearly..I've accepted that my life will forever be shit no matter how much I try, pray and keep faith it just ain't gonna get better. I have legit no one in my corner, but when everyone finds out I died I know there will be so many people acting like they were there, I didn't have to take my own life. But here I am, taking my own life...for a billion reasons. I have no job anymore , no income because of coronavirus and I have really bad anxiety and depression. On top of grief, loneliness, poverty and a whole bunch more. Nomore sob stories, it's time I take control of my life and end this shit. God bless everyone I'll still be here until Tuesday, I have to figure out how to ban myself, oh and one last thing, it would be cool if someone could talk me through it at the moment, maybe sit on the phone with me until I'm unconscious, I would like that❤❤