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Worthless Maid

Worthless Maid

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Feb 2, 2026
7
Hi everyone šŸ‘‹ šŸ¤—
I was visiting this site very often but I didn't had any accounts.
I'm 20F my ctb reason long story short is I always struggle with people. Mostly because of my parents conflicts each other and overprotective mother. I don't have any friends and I can't make one in real life. So normal life is something not for me & I can't keep living like this.

I'm recently thinking about ctb very seriously and I have collected sn
I don't know when I might be able to leave because I'm so scared of pain but I think I might do it soon.

I have sodium nitrite, domperidone as AE and bromazepam. I don't have Beta blocker but I can get them if needed. And I'm kinnda confused about this. Some says it might make your death slow. Any idea about this ? And should I be taking this if I ctb one day with sn?


And thank you everyone for reading this long post (ā ā•„ā ļ¹ā ā•„ā )
I find this community very friendly for people like us. Have a great day everyone. Love you all sasu members (⁠ ā ā—œā ā€æā ā—ā  ⁠)⁠♔
 
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dewdfish

dewdfish

Student
Nov 30, 2025
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There's plenty of people who used different protocols here. Some only took SN and nothing else. You can look up around the site and I'm sure you'll find it. But overall, it's a pretty "painless" moment.
 
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Worthless Maid

Worthless Maid

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Feb 2, 2026
7
There's plenty of people who used different protocols here. Some only took SN and nothing else. You can look up around the site and I'm sure you'll find it. But overall, it's a pretty "painless" moment.
Thanks i will try ā˜ŗļø
 
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kufajoy

kufajoy

Misfit
Nov 6, 2025
205
I will take Propranolol 400mg if I die from sn. Whatever happens happens šŸ˜†
 
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Untoten_

Untoten_

Will be CTBing this year.
Jan 29, 2026
44
Thanks i will try ā˜ŗļø
When you do take SN your blood pressure tanks and it can cause the same effect that gives you a headache (that's just blood vessels btw, your brain has zero pain receptors).

That's it for "pain" there might be "panic" if your survival instinct kicks in, but that's it. But even then that's an if.

When people say take 1000mg of Paracetamol/Tylenol/Acetaminophen that's mainly to counter act that small little pulsing headache and it's one of the only other ones that won't make you vomit.

SN (also KN) is slow because it gives you time to reflect and it is painless and peaceful. This is why when I ctb, I'm gonna go to the only place I have good memories in, besides it looks absolutely lovely and I'll be found the next day by seasoned hikers.

My point is SN and KN are meant to be slow but peaceful. At least if you do it right, you'll die with an amazing view.
 
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Kayla

Kayla

quetiapine <3
Dec 23, 2024
168
My point is SN and KN are meant to be slow but peaceful. At least if you do it right, you'll die with an amazing view.
SN isn't slow at all. You normally are unconscious by the 12-minute mark. It happens so fast.
 
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bluevalentine

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Dec 22, 2025
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hey i relate alot to your situation, hope you find success in what youre looking for. i also new and still doing more research on everything would gabapentin work as anti acid?
 
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Worthless Maid

Member
Feb 2, 2026
7
hey i relate alot to your situation, hope you find success in what youre looking for. i also new and still doing more research on everything would gabapentin work as anti acid?
I heard it also work as anti acid. But isn't actual anti acid medicine easy to get ?
SN isn't slow at all. You normally are unconscious by the 12-minute mark. It happens so fast.
I have read your post. It sounds like very peaceful actually. I'm also glad you are okay ā˜ŗļø
 
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Untoten_

Will be CTBing this year.
Jan 29, 2026
44
SN isn't slow at all. You normally are unconscious by the 12-minute mark. It happens so fast.
This depends on how much is taken. A gram of it is lethal but will take longer, at least according to some medical sources I can find.

The more you take the more it speeds up. I plan on around 2-4 grams only. Should take around a half an hour before I'm out, 45 at a push.

(It also depends on body weight as well, I'm a meathead so it might take longer)
 
fyer

fyer

Member
Oct 27, 2025
32
When you do take SN your blood pressure tanks and it can cause the same effect that gives you a headache (that's just blood vessels btw, your brain has zero pain receptors).

That's it for "pain" there might be "panic" if your survival instinct kicks in, but that's it. But even then that's an if.

When people say take 1000mg of Paracetamol/Tylenol/Acetaminophen that's mainly to counter act that small little pulsing headache and it's one of the only other ones that won't make you vomit.

SN (also KN) is slow because it gives you time to reflect and it is painless and peaceful. This is why when I ctb, I'm gonna go to the only place I have good memories in, besides it looks absolutely lovely and I'll be found the next day by seasoned hikers.

My point is SN and KN are meant to be slow but peaceful. At least if you do it right, you'll die with an amazing view.
You think that different painkillers like tramadol for example can make you vomit?
 
Kayla

Kayla

quetiapine <3
Dec 23, 2024
168
This depends on how much is taken. A gram of it is lethal but will take longer, at least according to some medical sources I can find.

The more you take the more it speeds up. I plan on around 2-4 grams only. Should take around a half an hour before I'm out, 45 at a push.

(It also depends on body weight as well, I'm a meathead so it might take longer)
2-4g may not even work it could, but yk. And it would be way longer than half an hour.
 
Untoten_

Untoten_

Will be CTBing this year.
Jan 29, 2026
44
You think that different painkillers like tramadol for example can make you vomit?
Just be careful with what you take, I have an absolute iron stomach and I took in 102-109 Citalopram and 20+ Propanolol during my OD attempt and even then I puked only once. I would have died if I wasn't "saved"

Not everyone is like that so just be careful to be found in a pile of vomit.
2-4g may not even work it could, but yk. And it would be way longer than half an hour.
A gram has been enough to kill before, I'm not bothered by how long it takes, hence why I'm going to a place I know from memory is absolutely beautiful. Surrounded by tall trees, shade, fog and rivers. I want to see nice things before I go. I don't wanna be staring at my four walls and a PC set up.

It should at best be around 45 minutes at a push. I've beaten my SI multiple times, so I know regret is no concern. And even if it takes a bit too long I'll just take more.
 
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