My finals days.

[LetMeDieInPeace]

I finally wrote my note, it's very long and I went into detail as much as possible to why I have decided to CTB and I made sure to state that it's nobody's fault. I made sure none of my family see my body by taping an envelope to my backdoor with a letter inside telling them to not check the shed and to read the only notepad file on my desktop where my note is written. Also, I removed the password on my computer and left a desktop shortcut to a Youtube video on how to factory reset my computer as I want to give it to my brother after I CTB. I tried to CTB just now, I started to black out but SI kicked in. I'm going to attempt every night and I have a large time window to do so because I go to sleep at 5-6 A.M while my brother and mother go to sleep at 12-1 A.M. If I become inactive on this website for more than 7 days then that means I've successfully CTB or been admitted to a mental health unit.

 

[AnxietyAttack44]

I wish you good luck and lots of peace in anything that happens.

 

[randomz]

I am sorry life brought you to this point. I gotta ask - have you exhausted all other options to be happy and find meaning in life? I really hope you think over this final decision.