Well, this is it. My final week (hopefully) on planet Earth. I'm nervous but I feel a sense of relief knowing that all my worries will soon be gone. I haven't been sleeping because of nervousness and excitement. I can't go to the psych ward so I have to make this count. I'm jumping off a bridge but I'm not disclosing the bridge in case there are any lurkers on here. Yes, I picked one of the most terrifying methods but at least I know I'll be dead. I don't have it in me to fight anymore or deal with the bullshit that this life brings. You can say goodbye or wish me luck. I'll still be active until next Saturday. Thank you all for being a place I could go to when I need judgement free support that my irl friends would take me to the psych ward for. Love you all Sasu fam.
I'm (maybe) killing myself in January 2026 to April 2026, somewhere in those months, by putting 99.999% pure N2 nitrogen (in gas form, NOT liquid) inside a big exit bag, and just putting it around my head with 49 liters of that gas and sealing it airtight around my head, and then zip tie my hands and legs so that I don't escape while unconscious so that I pass out very quickly like in 2 to 5 breaths since the urge to breathe is actually caused by co2 build up and not lack of oxygen, so my death will be painless, I don't need to use more nitrogen gas than that because it's pointless to use a constant flow of a lot of it when you literally need only 10 deep breaths of that gas, also the co2 build up in my blood while I'm unconscious will make it even more lethal because that's the classical suffocation, but the lack of oxygen first without co2 build up, happens so that I don't have to suffer the horrible urge to breathe feeling consciously before passing out, and after I pass out, co2 builds up significantly from re-inhaling my exhaled breath, which makes me feel air hunger, but it doesn't cause me to feel air hunger because I am unconscious. I'm tired with all this suffering, even my mother killed herself with helium tank connected to a plastic bag with a hose in the year 2014, that method is really rare in 2014.
️ I wish you eternal peace girl 
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I wish you peace
