My divorce is causing me to want to commit suicide

[breN4short]

I am the one who asked for my divorce because I was greedy and wanted to experience other women. I have lost 10 years of my life, my house, dog, all belongings, car, accumulated severe debt… I found another girl who was amazing and showed me the world. We dated for about 8 months but I have become such a depressed mess and can't hold a job. I had to move back in with my parents in Florida. I miss my old life in New Jersey. I can't hold a job, I've been down here in Florida for two months just existing. I am positive that I want to commit suicide. I just want a painless way. I have tried suicide more times than I can count this past year but unfortunately can't bring myself to hang… I'm interested in SN… I'd like to rent a hotel room, drink it and be done. If anyone can help me pm me or whatever.. any help towards CTB would be appreciated

 

[FuneralCry]

For anyone to be able to private message you in the first place you need a few more posts and your account needs to be 24 hours old. But I've never attempted the hanging method, it sounds difficult, horrible and risky, I would fear something going wrong if I tried to attempt so it makes sense wanting a reliable poison method instead. I hope that you find the freedom that you wish for, best of luck.