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BasilThePlant

BasilThePlant

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Aug 13, 2024
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To start, I have decided on this, no one can convince me otherwise. I am still living with parents for at least another year, so I would rather not just abandon them, or make them see my body, knowing it was a suicide. I would rather them not know I have been feeling this way for a while. Starting when I start school which will let me skip breakfast and lunch and occasionally dinner, I should be able to pretend to eat every day, or just give my friends my meals in the event of staying after school. This starts August 26th, and I will be documenting week by week how I feel.
Rules are as follows (to remind myself) ~ no food AT ALL. only drink allowed is water, if I absolutely need something to prepare for a test, energy drinks or caffeinated drinks are allowed (below 10 cals, and only occaisonally). adopt a baggier clothing style to hide weight loss. romanticize my life (aka studying with music and blankets). enjoy life while I have it. and thats about it!
wish me luck. hopefully this only takes ~2 months. will update.

(im also debating on writing a letter to parents to find after my death- thoughts?)
 
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stoiccactus

stoiccactus

somehow still here
Mar 24, 2022
278
Damn this is like suicide on hard mode. I do have to wonder, if like some kind of ascetic monk if you will find meaning at some point along the way. Godspeed.
 
BasilThePlant

BasilThePlant

Member
Aug 13, 2024
41
Damn this is like suicide on hard mode. I do have to wonder, if like some kind of ascetic monk if you will find meaning at some point along the way. Godspeed.
Ty. I am also religious, so I hope to find my purpose with God along the way and spread His word.
 
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Steff1337

Steff1337

Autistic and schizophrenic, please be respectful
Jun 21, 2024
633
I'm sorry that things are like that for you. I hope that you'll find eternal peace even thru this very difficult method.
 
sugarb

sugarb

thief of silent dreams
Jun 14, 2024
794
That's not going to work, but I wish you well regardless
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
48,157
I wish you the best, I hope you find what you search for.
 

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