Asuraa
whats wrong with me
- Aug 12, 2025
- 8
So i was diagnosed with ADHD when i was around 7 years old. They gave me meds but i forgot what i took. Ever since i was a kid i never did good in school, but i always managed to get by. I always felt like i was different from the other kids and i was treated like shit by teachers who always thought i was lazy. I remember being told that i am so smart, that i just need to try harder. My parents always were angry at me for doing bad in school, not doing homework shit like that.
After elementary school i was no longer seen by a psychiatrist and I was not helped after that for my ADHD. I just rawdogged my way through middle school, did shitty of course. Until my junior year of high school my teacher noticed and i was seen by the counselor and then seen by a psychiatrist. I was given so many medications. None of them worked. I was given Adderall, that didnt worked so then i switched to Concerta. That didnt do shit either so then i went on wellbutrin, then strattera. Then i graduated high school so i was no longer being seen anymore by the psychiatrist. But none of the medications worked.
College started, and It was fucking horrible. I couldn't get shit done at all. well since in high school teachers were always there to like try to get me to do shit and eventually i did. But in college i just failed. I would cheat and learn nothing all the time. Switched majors like 3 times. eventually dropped out in late 2025, because of my inability to get shit done and the fact that i have social anxiety disorder. I started seeing a psychiatrist and i attend therapy every week. I am currently on Zoloft for anxiety & depression aswell as Adderall IR which i got switched to from Adderall xr.
Still feeling no effect. Even the zoloft. I dont even know what its supposed to feel like but it just feels like no medication at all is working. I dont know what is wrong with my brain or whatever.
I just want to feel better. I want to do better. I say this and yet i have no desire to do anything at all. I dont understand. this makes me want to die so bad. I sit at home all day doing nothing while all the people i know live their lives getting their degrees and everything, and I am just here doing jack shit.
Anyone got any ideas? or relate to this? I don't know why i am like this.
After elementary school i was no longer seen by a psychiatrist and I was not helped after that for my ADHD. I just rawdogged my way through middle school, did shitty of course. Until my junior year of high school my teacher noticed and i was seen by the counselor and then seen by a psychiatrist. I was given so many medications. None of them worked. I was given Adderall, that didnt worked so then i switched to Concerta. That didnt do shit either so then i went on wellbutrin, then strattera. Then i graduated high school so i was no longer being seen anymore by the psychiatrist. But none of the medications worked.
College started, and It was fucking horrible. I couldn't get shit done at all. well since in high school teachers were always there to like try to get me to do shit and eventually i did. But in college i just failed. I would cheat and learn nothing all the time. Switched majors like 3 times. eventually dropped out in late 2025, because of my inability to get shit done and the fact that i have social anxiety disorder. I started seeing a psychiatrist and i attend therapy every week. I am currently on Zoloft for anxiety & depression aswell as Adderall IR which i got switched to from Adderall xr.
Still feeling no effect. Even the zoloft. I dont even know what its supposed to feel like but it just feels like no medication at all is working. I dont know what is wrong with my brain or whatever.
I just want to feel better. I want to do better. I say this and yet i have no desire to do anything at all. I dont understand. this makes me want to die so bad. I sit at home all day doing nothing while all the people i know live their lives getting their degrees and everything, and I am just here doing jack shit.
Anyone got any ideas? or relate to this? I don't know why i am like this.
