My CTB 2026: Official thread...

[Defenestration]

My CTB 2026: Official thread...

I plan to post here about my CTB 2026.
I don't know when the CTB will take place, or how... it just has to be absolutely finished by 2026!

2023, 2024, 2025, I told myself I had to do it, but I didn't have the energy, the opportunity...

I can't back out anymore, I've reached my limit. 2026 will be the one. Things can only get worse...

I will post regularly about concrete things I will do in this regard.

 

[Defenestration]

I dream of jumping from a clifftop, but I don't have a high enough spot near me... either I land in water (I'm afraid of drowning) or there are fences or safety nets. I do have one spot, but it's 350 km from my house, and I don't even know if it's high enough or difficult enough to get there since I don't drive.

It will probably be SN

 

[Defenestration]

I need to pull myself together and have my suicide letters and contact persons, plus other things, finished by Sunday night...

 

[PrismHon]

I love the thread title "2026 Official Thread" as if it's like a thread for a sports game or a movie that has just released!

Don't take what I said above seriously... I'm an autistic idiot that laughs at random things.

I suppose my question for you would be, you ruled out jumping and said "probably will be SN" so do you actually have SN? If you don't, you really think it's obtainable by Sunday?

I know you probably don't want to hear this, but based on what I've read above, I would strongly advise reconsidering that Sunday deadline...

 

[Defenestration]

Don't worry, it doesn't bother me. I understand that it makes you smile. Yes, I've had SN it for a year and a half...
but it doesn't seem like a very peaceful method (extremely anxiety-inducing) and not 100% safe... whereas jumping from over 50 meters onto a hard surface would be much faster and more effective.

When I was talking about Sunday evening, I was referring to suicide letters and people to notify, not the CTB...
it's to motivate myself because I keep putting it off and I'm lazy.

I wrote this letter in 2023 and I update it regularly... but I haven't updated it in a long time and there are a lot of things to change.

 

[Defenestration]

Okay, I'm getting a move on, I'm going to update my list of contacts to notify...by removing people and adding people

 

[PrismHon]

When I was talking about Sunday evening, I was referring to suicide letters and people to notify, not the CTB...

Ah yes I read what you wrote again and honestly I have no idea how I came to that conclusion, I can't even blame being high... my apologies for misunderstanding.

 

[Defenestration]

I didn't make much progress last night with the contacts I need to notify... I spent a lot of time on it.

 

[HeyBoogahJr]

I hope you find peace.

I'm done too, 2026 is my year too. No more time to cry, It's my time to die.

I hope your attempt is successful. Good luck.

 

[Defenestration]

Thank you, it takes a very long time to redo all the paperwork, letters, contacts, instructions...

 

[Defenestration]

I'm making progress on my updates; it takes time, but it's bringing my project to life... I still have a lot to do... it's satisfying to do it.

 

[Defenestration]

Preparing my CTB makes me feel good... I feel a sense of well-being... everything seems lighter all of a sudden.

 

[bl33ding_heart]

I hope you find the peace your heart desires.

 

[Defenestration]

Thanks, it's not for right now, lots of things to sort, organize, write... ctb not now

 

[neverexistedd]

I wish you all the best, and I hope you'll be safe

 

[Defenestration]

I hope I'm not taking any risks with the police and that they don't show up at my house... I don't live in the United Kingdom.

 

[Defenestration]

My father is having some minor problems, so it's a bit of a wait.

 

[Defenestration]

Even though my father has some minor health issues, it will be in a few years, so I will be even more stuck.

 

[Defenestration]

I can't do CTB before Mother's Day.... but time is passing and my motivation to do CTB is waning...