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May 10, 2019
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So I have been lurking on here for a long while and have been inspired by the support and understanding.

I have suffered for many years and have planned Monday to be my last day. I have tried many times before but always failed. The most successful was with a set of barbecues but I was woken too soon and only had a bad headache and could hardly move my limbs for a few hours.

This time, i am renting a generator on the morning. I have a car and will park up, take some sleep aids, switch the generator on and let things run their course.

I have tried so hard to carry on but the pain is just too great. The endless cycle's have worn me down and I am a shell of the person I once was.

I put on a brave face but I am ready to move on and be at peace. I just hope my family understand my reasons.
 
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I'm sorry you've had such a hard time. I hope you find your way to a peaceful end to your suffering. Journey well
 
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May you find peace.
 
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So I have been lurking on here for a long while and have been inspired by the support and understanding.

I have suffered for many years and have planned Monday to be my last day. I have tried many times before but always failed. The most successful was with a set of barbecues but I was woken too soon and only had a bad headache and could hardly move my limbs for a few hours.

This time, i am renting a generator on the morning. I have a car and will park up, take some sleep aids, switch the generator on and let things run their course.

I have tried so hard to carry on but the pain is just too great. The endless cycle's have worn me down and I am a shell of the person I once was.

I put on a brave face but I am ready to move on and be at peace. I just hope my family understand my reasons.

so many people seem to "lurk" lol.........all the best!
 

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