Venting Moment of madness

[Dead beat dad]

So I've posted about this before, I get some pretty sketchy dreams (don't we all?).
Last night I woke up in the wee small hours and was awake but not in full possession of my faculties.
I have a noose that I keep in my garage and my thoughts were (and this is going to sound really dramatic) kind of like possessed that I should at that precisie moment get my ass down there and CTB.
It was powerful and frightening.
Anyone else get this happens to them?
Peace all
DBD

 

[seekingoblivion]

So I've posted about this before, I get some pretty sketchy dreams (don't we all?).
Last night I woke up in the wee small hours and was awake but not in full possession of my faculties.
I have a noose that I keep in my garage and my thoughts were (and this is going to sound really dramatic) kind of like possessed that I should at that precisie moment get my ass down there and CTB.
It was powerful and frightening.
Anyone else get this happens to them?
Peace all
DBD

Last week I tried to hang myself with a necktie at 3am after a moment pretty much like you describe. Wasn't frightening for me but rather it made me feel like should I organize my way out I will at least be able to go through with it.

 

[Redt2go]

So I've posted about this before, I get some pretty sketchy dreams (don't we all?).
Last night I woke up in the wee small hours and was awake but not in full possession of my faculties.
I have a noose that I keep in my garage and my thoughts were (and this is going to sound really dramatic) kind of like possessed that I should at that precisie moment get my ass down there and CTB.
It was powerful and frightening.
Anyone else get this happens to them?
Peace all
DBD

Yeah I call these my irrational suicidal brain moments... very intense but also freeing... It'll probably be in one of these moments that I kms no fear, no second thoughts... As @seekingoblivion said I'm planning things out so when I have one of these moments and I'm truly ready... I (hopefully) won't fail...